Something That We Need To Talk About..

Part 2

  Everyone has there own way of dealing with things for some it's punching things, music, talking, writing, or they have come up with there own thing to learn to deal with it, but it should never be drugs or drinking or cutting, everyone is different in their own way no one is ever the same we all have things that make us different and that's good no one should ever be the same as another person. What makes you different is what makes people like you. Anyways back to what I was saying life happens to be the most difficult thing in the world. It also takes a huge toll on your mind and if you have a really bad life it can affect you in the future and it sucks when you think your not worth anything and that the world would be better off without you, but it's not we are all here for a reason.




Another thing that it hard to deal with for me is seeing my family hurt and cry their eyes out (not really cry their eyes out ) but cry until they can't cry anymore. That is the hardest thing for me. I use to have nightmares like really really really bad nightmares, in the dreams I would see my whole family get brutally murdered, and if it wasn't my whole family it was my mom that I seen die. The first nightmare that I had about my family dying was the one when my mom had to go overseas the have her surgery done but they wouldn't let her on the boat, so she had to get over there on her own but then it skipped and I was watching over her like from the sky and all I remember was my mom laying on the beach all bloody and broken up and the next thing I know is the paramedics getting my mom the the hospital and rushing her into surgery and after it when to me at school in class and the cops coming into my class and asking "if I was there", and when the teacher pointed to me and the whole class was saying "oooooooooooooo you're going to jail you're in trouble" after the class said what they said the cop turned around and said "she's not in trouble we are here to get her and then we have to go get her sisters her mom is dead" after he said that I just remember crying my eyes out. That was just a dream but it felt so real like it was really happening I woke up in tears after having that dream.


That was just one of the dreams the second one I had was when my family and I had gone to bed and when I woke up I couldn't move because there was 2 cement blocks on my hips and I couldn't move them so I started to yell and cry because it was really scary and my ex boyfriend came running in the house and when he got to me I asked him "how he got in the house if the door was locked" after he looked at me and he said "the door wasn't locked it was open" so I just looked at him and said "well get these things off of me" so he did after I got up I noticed that my baby sister Jasmine was not breathing and there was blood everywhere so I stood up and looked at my other sister Neveah to see if she was still breathing, and she wasn't breathing either and there was blood all over the place so I ran out of my room and when to the living room to my older sister Dominique to see if she was still alive and she wasn't and there was blood all over the ceiling and windows. I hurried up and ran to my mom's room to see if she was still alive and she was in her bed but she wasn't sleeping and she also wasn't breathing so I started to crying a lot after I calmed down a little I picked up my mom's phone to call my aunt that lives down the hill, and a cop picked up her phone and when I said auntie and I was crying the cop said "mame who are you and what is going on" all I could do was cry. When I told the cop what happen at my house he said "the same thing happened to my aunt but there were no survivors at all" so I called the cops so they could come to my house and help me I found my other aunts number and called her and the same thing happened again so I was the only one that was left in my whole family everyone was gone and dead I was all by myself with no one to help me.