// You can be whatever you want, you choose to be. Others shouldn’t tell you who you are. If you want to be a shadow, like me, you can be it. But being a shadow doesn’t mean always being alone or being a piece of puzzle, which fits everywhere and doesn’t fit anywhere. You can be a flame inside. A burning flame. When someone inspires you, you can create so much and amazing works.It is just perfect to be yourself. Just to go out of your butterfly cocoon. //
We went to the nearest bus stop; and waited a few minutes for a 6th bus. The 6th bus.. do you know where it goes? To the one of the most beautiful places… To the Klaipėda lighthouse.
I was surprised, when I got in the bus. It was almost empty. At summer. It felt like this bus was reserved just only for me and Måns.
It took a bit of time to get to the lighthouse. So I decided to open the facebook, again. Because I forgot what I saw earlier. Måns makes me calm. Like, calm about my life. And ofc, when i opened facebook, I remembered what happened. My facebook was hacked by my best friend. How great. Ugh. I started crying. I tried to stop my tears, but unfortunately, they didn’t stop. Måns noticed that. He tried to calm me and asked:
-What happened, Rūta?
-Ah, nothing. Ignore my tears.
-I can see that something happened. And i’m not going to ignore your tears.
But we got out of the bus. And I still wasn’t calm. I was still crying. But I thought I need to say him what happened.
-Well.. if you really want to know what happened…
-I do.
-My ex-best friend hacked my facebook and wrote a lots of stuff of not nice things.
-Well, you can calm down. You’re with me and you know that I’ll never do that.
Yes, you will never, because we are never going to be best friends, right?
But then he hugged me and started singing Broken Parts. I got calmer, when he did that. But I was still crying, but this time from happiness, while we went to the lighthouse.
We went into a forest path. Okay, it wasn’t a real forest. Just a few trees. But the feeling. I wanted to run and scream from happiness. But I knew if I’d do that Måns will actually think I am weird.
Everyone is weird in their own way. Weirdness is beautiful, remember that.
Okay. I’m still not going to do that. I am too fragile to hear people hurting me.
Fragile as the thinnest glass. One wrong move and I’m broken. I’m in broken parts. And Måns always mend my broken parts.
But Måns will never hurt you, skönhet! As you said, he mends your broken parts!
And I decided to run and just be happy being myself. To remember the childhood days.
-I love woods!
I felt like a free child, which is just being happy, because she can do what she wants.
The forest path ended, and we finally got to the lighthouse.
-Here it is, the secret place where I wanted to be with you!
-Oh. That’s a beautiful lighthouse!
-Yep. I’ve been here for so many times. But I love all the times, when I’m here.
I opened the old black lighthouse door, we went inside. We climbed up to the room which was next to the balcony.
-So, tell more about yourself, Rūta! said Måns and smiled while looking in my eyes.
-Well, I’ve been living here since I was born. And now I’m 19 years old. I had ups and downs in my life, but when I was the most down, you took me out of my depression and that’s why I’ll be thankful forever to you! I really like living here, but I want to move to Stockholm. Because Stockholm is magical! I want to open an art workshop there and donate as much money as I can to your foundation.
-Oh, that’s kind!
-Tack!
So he listened to my life story. I don’t know if that wouldn’t be too personal about him.. but let’s try.
-And what about you?
-My dream was to tour all over Europe, and it came true! This year was really busy for me, so that’s why we didn’t have our tour. Just a few cities, like Klaipėda, where we went. We are planning Europe and Asia tours in next year!
-I’’m really looking forward!
-Thank you!
-And also I wanted to say, I’ve always been a just a shadow. But you showed me that I can be whatever I want to and do good works. I am a shadow, but I have a flame inside, when you or others inspire me. So Tack så mycket.
We’ve stayed in that room, talking for a few hours.
Later, we went outside to the balcony.
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