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What have I done? I've done a terrible terrible thing. What is wrong with me? Everything was going good and I probably could've gotten him back. But I went and ruined it. I need to talk to him. And convince him that we were meant to be. If he hasn't figured out I was behind that awful situation last week. Oh dear, oh me, oh my. "Jasmine!" Called a voice. Who is that? No one ever calls me by my full name. Hmmm.

"Whats the answer to question five?" Oh my gosh I'm in class... I must have been daydreaming again. Oh gosh. "Um.....well you see, that since number five is such a complex question...." That's it, stall em so you can figure this out. "It is obviously a five step problem in which you use the formula for square root to multiply it by its third power divided by one hundred to find the percentage times seventy two to get the left over percentage then subract that from one  hundred percent to get eighteen percent per person." Whew...that was scary. I hate when I have to do that. "Jasmine you didn't need that long explanation we'd already done the math on the board, we only wanted the answer" The teacher sounded a bit annoyed. "Oh s-sorry, sometimes I over explain" I stuttered. Geez now I'm akward and uncomfortable. Nice going Jazz. Let's get through the rest of the day I guess.

*home*

I made her cheat.....and for what? Revenge? I'm a bad person. I need to apologize. Please pick up.

*Dialing BestfriendBoyfriend*

Hey It's Jalen, go ahead and leave a message.

"Hi, I'm sorry, I don't even know where we went wrong, if you could explain or we could talk about it that would really-"

*Message too long ending call*

Oh, oh okay. Well I guess I'll go visit him.
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Jalen pov

*knock knock*

Someone's at the door? Why should I answer, there's no point I bet the mailman will break my heart too.

*You have 1 unheard message, sent today at 3:30 pm*

I guess I'll listen.

*First unheard message*

"Hi, I'm sorry, I don't even know where we went wrong, if you could explain or we could talk about it that would really-"

*Save, press 7, delete press 9-deleted, end of messages*

*knock knock*

I guess I'll go get the door. "Hi, can we-" I slammed the door on her. Why is she here? Is she trying to get revenge? What does she want from me? "Hi, Jalen, I'm not mad, can we just talk for a minute?" I opened the door a bit. "And why would we do that" I asked. "So I can find some closure in knowing what I did wrong" she whispered. ".....come in......" I answered.

"So Jazz what is it you want to know?" I asked once we were in my room.  "Well.....why did you start cheating on my?" She asked. I feel back on my bed and put my hands over my face.  Why did I cheat? I mean I had no reason, I wasn't bored, she was a great girlfriend, so what happened? Ohhhhhh, now I remember. Yeesh.

*flashback*

"Jazz, why haven't we......ya know?"
I questioned. I had been fed up and you know teen hormones. My left hand was starting to not be enough.
"Because I'm going to make it out of high school without a baby or std." She answered like it was no big deal. "Okay one, I don't have any std's I'm a virgin like you, and two, you can use birth control" I countered. "Do you know how expensive birth control is?" She gave me this dumb look. "I'm a teen, not 26 with 2 degrees. The best job I could get is probably at Mcdonalds, so I don't have money like that" "Alright then how about I have sex with someone who will? Hmm" I almost yelled. "Haha, suuuure" She said and rolled her eyes.

*End of flashback*

Why did I take that as actual permission to cheat? Now that I look back, that was a stupid decision.

"Jalen are you going to answer me?"
Jazz asked puzzled. "Ah, um....so the reason is a bit ummmm, pointless, how about we talk about a different topic?" I suggested. "No, I need you to tell me, or else I'll be blaming myself forever for nothing in particular" She looked so sad when she said that,  and her eyes glazed over and became distant. "Okay, so it was because, I had my ummm....*cough* hormones *cough* raging, and so you know that makes you.....ho- *cough* yup that's all" I explained the best I could. The next thing that happened scared me a little, her eyes, when I looked into them it was like there was no soul, just a body staring into the abyss.

"Jalen.....I.....I'm gonna go home" She stammered. "No wait, please it's not as bad as it seems, well it is but-" I pleaded. "I'll uh, see you later." She choked over her shoulder. I could tell she choked that out, she was just about broken, one more hit would've bought her to tears.

"Oh and also....I would've given you some after we graduated,  I guess you just weren't patient" She muttered. Then she started to cry. "You know I came over here to try to get you back but learning that petty reason to cheat on me broke my heart even more, now I don't know if I want you any more" she cried out. "Hey don't tell me anything about petty, I know what you told Sarah to do that's low....I thought you were better than that" I yelled. "Yeah well.....not anymore" she yelled and slammed my door.

I can't believe I wanted him back. What am I supposed to do now? How about you win him back? With gifts and love. He doesn't deserve my love. Do you REALLY want him back? I....dont know....

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Been awhile since I made a note....hehe anyway Italics at the bottom are Jazz concience. Also the chapter was supposed to be about her trying to win him back, but a change of events like this? I don't know if she'll ever try to win him back again....or did you think she was desperate enough to do the nasty right then and there to get him back. Come on now...she's not that desperate.     ~;p SakuraandWinnie ps that's my new profile name for anyone who doesn't know.