What Am I

Chapter One

Santo POV

i was here chilling with my brother well not blood but you know what i mean, anyway we chilling playing the game and i'm just looking at him and he's acting more weird than usual.

I dont want to just come at him and start pressing him about it because if you knew him like i did you would understand. He's just different from others and that's why i love my bro to death i would do anything for him.

Right now i want to go to my girl house to talk and chill because my bro cool but hes just kinda boring we do the same stuff over and over and i dont tell him because i know he will get upset so i just got to tell him an excuse so i can leave.

"ayo jay um...my mom just texted me and says i have to come home right now for dinner...so maybe we can hang out next time or something"

"yeah sure i guess....i thought you said that we was gonna have dinner here with my mom?" he had asked. I did tell him that i was gonna have dinner here but i really want to go see Desiree and right now she told me shes pregnant and i need to be there for her and i didnt tell my mom or jacob because i dont want no one knowing yet and knowing Desiree her ass probably told half the world that she pregnant and tbh ion even think that the baby mines because she did cheat but either the baby mine or not ill be there and be a father for it.

'im sorry broi know but...my mom said i had to come home for dinner' i had got up and grabbed my jacket, 'maybe tomorrow ior sometime this week ill see you later bro ill make it up to you i promise' after i said that i had left and made my way to desiree house.

Jacob POV

i knew he wasnt going home i knew he was going to desiree house because his mom called and said she was coming over to have dinner with us...its crazy how he mess with someone so messy and that 'baby' desiree have aint even his, its this guy that me and santo used to hang out with, i didnt tell him cause 1, its not my business and 2, he needs to next time learn how to use a damn condom but hey i cant judge him on what he says or do but all i know is that i support him no matter what...so anyway im jacob im 15 and i um.....i kinda like santo but my ex august he tries to get with me but he just started this carer as a singer and forgot about me somewhatbut i dont care and i have a girl part. I wa meant to be a girl but i came out with a boys body, so yeah i have boobs big ones at that.....i have a curvy body and like i dont know i like who i am but people bully me for it but its whatever cause the girls at my school like me and they always do my makeup and all that shit my besfriend is Jayda (pic below guys ok)

i love her shes the one that first met me and always told me she love me male or female she didnt care and tbh she the only girl thats real to me besides Ariyanna (pic below)

and also of course my sister Sydney :)

and tay as well

those are my mains and yall know they hang out with desiree ugly ass -_________-

anyway so after my mom made dinner and we ate i just went to my room and had facetime jayda sessy ass ahhh.

'jaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay baby boy"

' girl you loud for what biiih like chiiiiiill'

' boy dont get fucked up remember im next door to you'

i busted out laughing but she really do live next door though and that was a whole fact but i love jayda and she just mean everything to me and always will. after being otp with her for about 2 hours i cried myself to sleep. i always ask myself 'what am i' and 'who am i' but i can never seem to find the answer and its hard for me to just accept this, my dad left because of me and my mom told me that that wasnt true and that i shouldnt think that way but thats how i left and i know its true, my dad didnt want no boy who had girl parts he wanted a boy who can become a man and that wasnt me but nobody loves me...and its ok cause i cant always depend on people to love me or be there for me when i need someone or something.