And He's Gone

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There weren't enough songfics inspired by Steven Universe in my opinion so here's something NOBODY asked for. YAY! Warning: There be feels ahead and mentions of drug addiction.

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I was fine with the men that would come into her life now and again

As Kaldur'ahm stood over Roy Harper's grave, he contemplated their relationship. What they had endured over the years. He remembers the longing stares that spoke a million words and the adrenaline induced kisses after a daunting mission. He remembers the way he would nuzzle into Roy's neck as they settled down for the night and the way his love's face would light up like a Christmas tree whenever he entered the room.

Then everything fell apart.

Roy didn't feel like Roy. As far as he was concerned, he wasn't Roy. He was a shoddy knockoff. A wannabe. A mere shell of what he had always thought he was. He needed someone to keep him from floating away while in the sea of despair. Kaldur was preoccupied with the Team, and worried about Tula and his old life in Atlantis. It's not like the two were officially together in the first place. There was something there though, right? He could've done something. Could've fought harder to keep his prince. But part of him had already given up on Roy. That's when she strolled in, and in hindsight Kaldur should've seen it coming.

Cheshire was not only able to indulge in Roy's fantasies of finding the original Roy, she was around enough that she was able to indulge in some fantasies of her own. Kaldur had even caught them on a rooftop while on his way to visit his beloved archer. He remembers the second heartbreak vividly. He remembers standing next to his lover and best friend during the wedding ceremony. He remembers the mirth in Roy's face as he kissed the bride, and he remembers his envy of the assassin. He remembers standing outside their apartment and hearing the yelling and glass shattering a mere four months later. He remembers catching Roy in an old warehouse with a needle in his arm. He remembers looking at Lian and tearing up because she has his eyes. Not the color but the look. The way they ignite when excited and visibly darken when sad and flare when distressed.

Kaldur then pondered if he would've broken up Roy and Jade even if it meant Roy may have died sooner and he would never be able to see those eyes again and he begins to weep because of his obvious and selfish answer.

I was fine, 'cause I knew that they didn't really matter until you

He thought of the good old days before Red Arrow and the Team. While Kaldur was in Atlantis, he didn't exactly have a way of defending his territory from the likes of Hannah, Reneé, Marcus, and Danté. At the end of the day, though, Roy would be the one to wrap his muscular arms around Kal's waist and and tell him exactly how important he was and how much he mattered. "You know you're my entire world," he would whisper sweetly. Then along came her. Kaldur knew Roy needed somebody to keep him grounded to reality, but why her?

He would never understand the appeal but Roy seemed to love her and that was all that mattered. She was just another ship in the night, sailing by. There was the small yet lavish wedding they had after the invasion. He had thought about his betrayal to the Team and Atlantis and how the plan will always be second in his lists of regrets. Not being there for Roy when he so clearly needed him will always be number 1, come what may.

I was fine when you came and we fought like it was all some silly game. Over her...

Standing over the grave of his dearest Roy Harper, Kaldur finds himself chuckling as he thinks of the cold war that went on between him and Cheshire. She would kiss him and stare right into his eyes. He would wrap his arms around Roy's shoulders and pull him close, all the while giving Jade taunting glances. He knew it was immature and petty, but Roy was the only person who had returned his affections and he wasn't going to give that up without a fight.