Dear God,
I don't understand why my life crumbled in my very own hands. It stings like a knife wound. It burns my whole damn soul.
I remember how you put us togheter. I remember how happy I felt. The joy overwhelmed my whole life. My life litteraly went from one moment from suicide to a Wonderland.
I walked in life with no fear of my future, I knew My God had my future right in front of me. Right now. Everyday i wake up, it feels like...
I wake up to a dream
Nothing feels real
Nothing feels REAL.
My head hurts constantly
My heart is wrenching
Inside my chest
I miss him God
I...Miss him God
But how come God
How did life come to this
God what are you doing
What are your plans
What is going on
Will tommorow be the same new routine
Wake up, feel empty, and carry my pain around but keep it hidden.
Because everything will be ok, God.
God, i cant find my common sense.
I cant find my right from wrong.
My heart and mind have been covered by deceit.
Deceit has poisoned my entire beign.
The poison seeps from my heart
It oozes bright red.
Because my heart is deeply wounded, God.
My heart has been wounded.
The wounds are self inflicted.
God, My wounds are self inflicted.
They are wounds in my heart.
There are burdens in my heart.
There are things in my heart that only you know.
My heart and my mind feel betrayed by me.
God you know me.
From the inside and out.
Break this deciet barrier between me and you.
Aid me
Humble my whole beign.
I am weak.
I am weary.
Im defeated.
But victory in you is guaranteed.
Help me father God.
Please. Don't forsake me.
I know i done wrong.
Forgive me.
