Spoby Fan Fiction: Love Again (Toby+Spencer)

A Hint of Fear

Spencer's POV

I walk against the sidewalk and bumped into Ken. Such a coincidence! He went back inside to get me a coffee. I knew that he liked me...but the problem is I don't love him back. My heart is still on Toby and I don't know if I'll ever let him go. But he also broke my heart, and I bet he's over me. I'm just not ready for a relationship yet. He came out and said:

Got your favorite! Skinny vanilla latte with extra whip cream! 

I then I said: You didn't have to do that! 

I held Ken's hand throwing it up nad down and walked down the street. I could see him blush from the side of my eyes. Suddenly I feel a chill again like Toby is watching me and saying no. But, I know that's not true. I quickly throw his hand down and walk quickly away from him anyway. He quickly caught up with me and said: 

What's wrong Spencer? Are my hands cold or something? 

He looked down at his hands. I laughed and said:

No of course not! It might just be my hands! 

He made a disgusting look on his face and I cracked up. And then, another cold shiver. I don't know what's happening to me, but I think I'm catching a Toby fever. I just HAVE to see him. But...I can't. I always feel like Toby's always around and watching me but, he's not really there. I stopped plopped onto the floor and started crying. Soon cries became sobs. Ken and everyone around me are saying things to comfort me and asking what happened but all I hear are mumbles.  I don't know what I'm feeling. The mixture of pain, of regret, all came out at once. I'm angry and I'm sad and I know that I've been holding it in for a while. I should've known this would happen. My sight is blurry but I couldn't stand the heat. There were I don't know, 50 people surrounding me? I got up slowly and all the talking stopped abruptly. Then I ran as fast as I could. I don't think anyone was chasing me so, I ran all the way to the garbage dump and screamed. I screamed loud and clear. Then, my vision became clear I saw Ken chasing up to me. He looked really worried and under his eyes, I could see a hint of fear. I know that someone like me who has been through so much just needs to let it out. And it seems that today was the day. Ken walked up to me out of breath and asked:

Are you--ok? 

I didn't answer immediately because my brain was processing everything that just happened and he said:

That was a silly question--of course you're not ok! Do you want to go home? Or grab some food? You look a bit pale. 

I shook my head and said to him: Sorry about that... I didn't know what happened there-umm, maybe we can-- ya I think going back to my house is better. I can drive I'm feeling better now. 

He nodded and looked kind of sad but this is not the time for me to consider what's right and wrong. I slowly walked away and shouted: Thanks Ken--for everything. 

I got back home and plopped on my bed. I got my own apartments here in Rosewood.  It isn't the best one but, at least I got the space to myself. I made it look a bit better now with my own personal things. I texted the girls, I missed them. After processing it's probably because 1. I miss Toby like wayyy too much and 2. because I had no one to vent to. I used to talk to the girls about everything that was going on and I guess....they are just....busy. But it doesn't hurt to give it a try. I texted:

Heyy guys. Umm, lately I've been feeling a little...down. Well I freaked out in the middle of the street and I don't know. I know we've stopped talking for a while but I hope we could all meet up again. I'm back in Rosewood and I hope one of you, or maybe all if that's possible, meet up with me...? Thanks. 

Your not so happy girl, Spencer. 

I miss Toby. I miss the taste of his soft tender lips and his bright blue eyes, and his-his everything. I just miss him. No, I don't miss him. I need him. 

A/N:

Heyy guys! A new chappie's out!! So this week and maybe the next I'll be a bit busy so I don't know if I'll post as much. Anyway, I hope you liked this chappie! Pretty long, 800 words:o But anyway, Spencer's POV for the first time. I hope you liked it! Anyway, what will happen to Spencer? Will she freak out again??? Will the girls all meet up?? Has any of the girls change?? Read the next chappie to find out!! 

-Stephh ≧◡≦ OUT!!!