2 times, 1 time (Yoonmin)

一

10:36pm 8th January

The world is a grey place.

I wish I gained more weight

The words are running through my mind. And I should really turn down the volume or I'll probably go deaf. But that doesn't matter right now.

I wish I was taller

Well, I'm an angry dwarf, so I guess that will not happen anytime soon. But that doesn't matter right now.

I wish my hands were bigger

Well that's a thing that I wouldn't change about ugly old me. The view up here is really beautiful tonight, I bet he would have loved it. But that doesn't matter right now.

I always seem to screw good and beautiful things up whenever it gets good. How could one simply destroy a smile that shines brighter than the brightest day of summer? How could one simply destroy the most happiest of all laughs that ever existed? How could one simply destroy something that's all but grey?

How can one simply destroy Park Jimin?

The answer is simple. Me. Yoongi. Or Min Yoongi to be exact. I am the soul reason to why my always shining sunshine Park Jimin never ever will smile again. My world, my world that used to be filled with so many different colours has once again gone grey because of me.

My phone is ringing, but what good will it do if I answer? Maybe I should check who's calling me... No that doesn't matter right know.

I'm at the highest point of the apartment complex, is it high enough though? It's time to find out if it's high enough now.

Three

My complex, My complex

Two

I'm more complex than the magazine

One

I hate me more than you hate me

Here we go then.

"MIN YOONGI, PLEASE STAY!!"

I turn around and surprisingly, there he is, the sunshine, the perfect man, the supposedly love of my life. No let me rephrase that, the love of my life.

Park freaking Jimin.

I get a glimpse of him while tears are running down his face. Hmm, he always look so beautiful even when tears are running down his face.

I fall backwards and down from the roof, it's really cold tonight, I should have worn a warmer coat. But that doesn't really matter at this point.

"I'm sorry, my love, my first love." Hah, even when slowly dying I say stupid things.

"YOONGI, DON'T LEAVE ME YOU DWARF, I LOVE YOU."

I'm sorry Jimin but all I do is destroy you, I can't live with myself or with you. It's better this way.

I love you too...

All of it is fading and becoming darker, is this what death feels like? Because this isn't so different from the life I lived before Jimin.

Well good bye world then. I'm sorry.

A/N: The song text used in this is from Zion.T - Complex