Tainted Innocence (girlxgirl) COMPLETED - Series Discontinued

22. Rolled Up Feelings

My heart broke so many times as I wrote this chapter. Enjoy. 

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Samantha's POV

"Come on Sam, just eat a little bit." Alexis cooed as she tried to  force a french fry in my mouth. I frowned, shaking my head, then frowned even more as I saw the dejected look on her face. 

"Fine," I sighed as I opened my mouth a little bit, giving her some credit by letting her feed me greasy school french fries. I haven't eaten in a few days ever since the incident with Isabelle, and Alexis has been noticing my mysterious weight loss. I don't know why Isabelle's rejection has caused me to react this negatively, as I knew I was still an immature kid with so many more possibilities in love afterwards. However, with the incident with Jordan, my self-esteem just plummeted into hell. Probably the only reason why I didn't actually file charges against Jordan, as I perceived it all as my fault. Maybe if I wasn't so easy...

"Eat this apple too. I'm saying this as your captain and best friend, you lost way too much weight these past few days. What's wrong, Samantha?" Her eyes softened and glowed when I reluctantly took a bite of my apple. 

I chewed hesitantly, then wincing as the shock hit my jaw from moving it for the first time today. It wasn't my fault that I didn't feel like eating. Or maybe it was, I didn't know. I honestly just wanted to know why one minute Isabelle was confessing how much she liked me, to how much she hated me for no apparent reason, to now not even liking me. Why was she so hot and cold? Why did it have to be me?

"Nothing. I don't feel well." I sighed as she watched me eat the apple slowly. I frowned, remembering the day Jason first introduced me to Isabelle, without even knowing about the hallway incident. I suddenly didn't want the apple anymore, remembering that Isabelle took a bite out of mine all those months ago. I switched to the cold french fries. 

"Samantha." I gulped, knowing that I was about to get lectured. I looked down at my pathetic french fries. I wasn't really in the mood for Alexis and her pep talks. Don't get me wrong, she was a really good friend for doing so, but all I could think about at the moment was Isabelle. I embraced myself for what was about to come.

"Do you want to grab some ice cream after practice?" She hesitated, "I know that contradicts our work out, but since it seems that you've lost about ten pounds in the past few days ... I think you can let me treat you to some." Her eyes flickered in connection to mine as I thought about it for a few seconds. 

I mean... I didn't have anything else to do that day. I never had anything to do, and it's not like Isabelle would booty call me like she normally would. Even if she did, I was way too upset over the confrontation. Why would I want to have sex with a woman who only wants to use me? 

"I guess ice cream couldn't hurt." I mumbled and was immediately greeted with Alexis smothering the air out of me.

"Yes!" She finally let go of me as she fist pumped the air. At that moment, the bell rung and the cafeteria was filled with students ready to go onto their next class. Alexis narrowed her eyes as she looked down at my mostly full lunch tray. She instantly grabbed a handful of fries and shoved them into my mouth. "There you go, that should get you through the day."

My eyes widened as I hastily chewed the french fries, gulping them down after a minute of trying not to choke. I took a swig of water to get rid of the taste. "You know, french fries probably aren't the answer to me suddenly eating..." I said in retaliation as we got up to get to class.

She rolled her eyes as a smirk came upon her face. "Oh, so you admit that you weren't eating then?"

I frowned. "No, I was-"