Trapped( jacksepticeye x pewdiepie)

Overthinking ,Chapter 5

(I have  no clue where this story is going, RIP. )

Felix:

I sat there in silence thinking , overthinking everything. Do I even love Marzia; I always joke about being gay like joji does well he's probably gay with idubbbz ,anyway thinking about it I don't think I actually 'love' her. I love her but I don't think its in a romantic way, I'm confused ,I'm scared ,am I lying to myself pretending I love her as scared to admit I'm not attracted to her or even females. Well it doesn't matter any way if I 'love' her or not as I'm never going to she her again or my family. I'm pathetic, I always want to be left alone and have no responsibilities but know I am alone I'm lost I don't know what to do. God damn it. Iv been here for only a couple of days and already think a monster is hot and attractive. 

My minds racing ,when I start thinking of one thing it turns into thinking about every single thing.

What is the point of living? to achieve? to 'create'?Why do we fear death, the thought of the unknow, the question of "what happens after we die "is it just the oblivion just darkness nothing at all there or does the so called God exist and are we all going to hell, we all fear what we can not explain or understand.I do not believe in things i do not see as logical or possible.I myself do not believe in 'god' as i dont want to as i fear it and am scared of ' it'.Humans are weak physically and mentally and snap and break easily. How i see it is that religious people believe in religions to help keep them stable and to stop fearing death.To have rules to follow as scared of failing.They want to live "correctly ".

Bithdays:

'Birthdays' the beginning of your existence. On your birtday people celebrate you being alive and your presents here.In my opinion bithdays are not for the person but mostly for family and friends who care about them.With out thier birthday they would not be here and no one would even know you would have existed.Your birthday affects the poeple around you their lifes would be extremelly differnt or atleast a little different if you was not born. So whos going to celebrate my birthday with me when im stuck down here.

I open my eyes and look up to see Jack stareing at me wait what,oh wow great now im blushing.Oh yeah im at Grilbys and Jack sat by me well thats embarrsing i just voned out. "Are you okay?"I look at jack, his sea blue eyes look at me in confusion and concern. I choke on my drink "yeah yep I'm fine and dandy". He chuckles and I begin to as well.

jack:

I offered to buy Felix a burger or chips. He choose chips. I asked if he wanted ketchup lucky he said yes so I can do my amazing original 'prank '. While he wasnt looking i used my amazing skills to quickly (as fast as sonic) sabotage the heinz. He grabs the ketchup and squeezes it causing it to go all over his chips and not a bit, a lot .I put my hand other my mouth and laugh yep as you could tell im a very mature person well monster what ever you call me. Well technically im human but im not going to talk about that today.He looks pissed like very pissed, i thought he would laugh you know not get annoyed at me.what do i do he probably hates me i dont know why but it makes my heart hurt when i think of Felix hating and ignoring me.I guess its because he's the only friend i had in a long time?"im sorry i can buy you new chips it was meant to be a joke..."He looks me in the eye and we begin staring at each other that is until he starts laugh.I feel a slightly relifed and begin to laugh along to the point we are in grillbys having a laughing fit over nothing really.Im glad Fees hear fee i like that maybe thatll be his nickname."Hey Fee ?". he turns and looks at me still slightly chuckling "Fee huh its cute i like it "he winks at me of course i blush."i need to think of a nickname for you, well your small ,cute pretend to be intimidating but is too small to be scary .Jackaboi". I give him a 'really' look and he smiles trying not to laugh. "are you going to go home as soon as you find a way out " i ask trying to not sound upset.He coughs and looks down "i guess, like...i dont know i have a life and family up there and a job well youtube"i nodded "whats youtube?"."you dont know what youtube is? well my son your missing out, you've  got a lot to learn." " Well then your gonna have to teach me dad" He blushes a lot! whys he blushing I don't understand why he's blushing but that doesn't mean I don't think he looks cute.

Felix

" Well then your gonna have to teach me dad "Why did he have to say that me being me thought of it in a ...bad way. And the "have to teach me" I cant help but think bad things, but its not my fault jacks so cute ,I wouldn't mind doing things with him .WAIT what! why did I think that brain stop! just stop! Jack looks at me and tilts his head and does god know he looks adorable, I just want to hug him; so I do something ill probably regret and hug him. At first he is a bit shocked but hugs me back. I start to smile like an idiot and begin to hug him even tighter if possible.

jacks so precious. But I'm going to have to leave him one day. I'm not sure if I want to go back home anymore.