My Love (Sequel to Smile For Me, Chresanto A)

Chapter 1

Last night

Im tired. Of everything! I can't handle this anymore. All this pain people are putting me through, the shit Chresanto and I are going through, my..baby girl. I miss her so much! I miss my best friend Zonnique, I didn't get to graduate 😢. My life has been nothing but up and downs and I just want my life to get better😓. Is that too much to ask?

I looked at myself in the mirror. My eyes was swollen from crying, tears stained on my face. My white crop top was a little messed up from my salty tears. I looked a hot mess and I need to get myself fixed up before Chresanto comes home from work.

We moved away from everyone because we couldn't take it, so now we live in Detroit. We got a place together which kinda wasn't a good Idea. Sometimes we will argue and I hate it because we argue over the most stupidest shit. We just drifted away from everybody..still wasn't a good idea 😒

I washed my face with dove soap and dryer it off. I changed my clothes to a tank top and sweats and layed in bed thinking..

No one wants me here.. no ones likes me.. not even my own mama ! Why should I be here? I hate myself. The way I look I don't even know why Chres dating me.

I opened the pill bottle and swolleed one pill. I washed it down with water and went to the bathroom. I searched for something to..slit.

I finally searched for the razor.

Ash don't do it! Think about Lila. Your skin is not paper, you'll regret for real. Please think . Chresanto's will upset. My thought says.

I always think about Lila and I'm still am and it's tearing me apart. Like seriously this hurts me 😭

Hot Tears was streaming down my face again. I don't want to do this, but I have to. It's the only thing that will make me feel better.

The razor was this close to my wrist until ..

"Ashley! Whatchu doing girl?" He tried grabbing the razor but I pushed him. I starting crying historically throwing things I can find at him, screaming and just going crazy.

"Ashley calm down!" He grabbed me by the waist and pulled my arms back slamming me against the wall to get me to calm down. I just collapsed on the floor and cried cried cried. What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm just sick and tired of going through this pain..

"Ash.." he carried me bridal style onto the bed. He sat by my side and kissed me on the forehead.

I stopped crying and sniffed. He wiped my tears and sighed. "Baby you wanna talk about this?" He asked. I shook my head. Not now. Maybe in the morning.

"Aight . We'll talk about this tomorrow, baby I'm really worried." He rubbed my thigh and steady looking at me. I just shrugged. I didn't want to talk at the moment . I just want to sleep. "Goodness Chres." Was all I said before I turnt my whole body around not looking at him anymore.

I heard him sigh and got in the shower finna get ready for bed.

Present 🤗
(Chresanto Pov )

I woke up from a light sleep. I stretched my arms and looked at the other side and it was still a sleepy Ashley. Just then it came to me about what all happened last night. She tried to cut. Thank the most high I made it on time for her not do it.