JASS 2 [COMPLETE]

Gonna talk to you rn

Like I don't have many followers and I don't even know if some of them look at my books (?)
Some of them are my friends irl so I was like "OI I'M ON WATTPAD FOLLOW ME" but yeah I still go on hoping someone will someday notice me.
It's not because "OMG I WANT MORE FOLLOWERS" cause I wanna be popular or stuff.
I want more followers just to have some people who tells me "hey, it's right like this" or "oi, this is not how you do that. You can do like this, or this..".
Some people which I can talk to.
Some people to befriend.
I know I can sound like a weird depressed bitch who does nothing but do shit in her life but hey, seriously, I can be friendly and kind and crazy woah yes I can.
I'd really like seeing what people thinks of me, of what I do. Even if I don't like what they think.
Even if someone says "Oh well your art is shit y'know?"
I accept that, but of course I'd like to understand what that person means by shit and why that person says so.
Yeah so this didn't involve any art or art related stuff, but I felt like I needed to say this to someone, so here I am saying this to you who are reading this chapter, even tho I already know who'll read it pretty much the people who always do so.
And yeah, as I said before I may seem a person who you can't talk to because you think that person couldn't understand you or stuff (does this even making sense? Can you understand what I'm saying because I'm making it soo difficult and neither I can understand clearly what I'm writing cause I'm half asleep) who doesn't have any friend.
I admit it, I don't have lots of friends. But I try to be the best for the few I have. I try to be gentle, be kind, be trustworthy, have faith into them. So I love them, and they love me....I guess. Even though some people don't...Well,I don't care. I mean, I care for people more than I care for me and this usually hurts me a lot at the end because...I don't even know why. It just ends up hurting me. But as I said, I don't care if it hurts me. If someone's important, I can do lots of things for her. Or him.
So yeah, I can be kind.
And I can be funny sometimes, I think.
Well I hope so cause I'm kind of a quiet girl so I usually stand out.
But why am I even talking about this HOLYY I'M GOING OUT OF THE TOPIC I SHOULD SLEEP.
Yeah I just wanted to say this, that's all, bye.
I don't think I'm gonna delete this chapter cause it somehow helped me expressing myself, and I hope it will give some results.
Bye again