The Avengers imagines/oneshots

Loki x suicidal! reader

WARNINGS: Selfharm, depression, maybe language?

"Fuck off Loki!" you shouted angrily at your boyfriend. "Oh come on, don't be so fucking childish (Y/N)!" he screamed back at you. "No seriously Loki, just get the fuck away! I can't take this shit anymore!" you gave back. "I don't understand how I could ever think I could love someone like you! You're just a burden to me, I would be better without you!" he growled. His words hurt you more than anything ever. This was too much for you to take, tears began
to make their way down your cheeks as you looked at him with pure hurt in your eyes and ran off into the bathroom, locking yourself in. Loki didn't even bother in following you, but he knew he went too far and wanted to give you time to cool off and thinking of a way how he should apologize to you. You knew that Loki wasn't quite a person that showed feelings or any of that stuff, but this time he really hurt you. It felt as if he teared out your heart and threw it to the floor. You yourself were struggling with
self confidence and depressions and Loki's words only made it worse. You just felt so hurt and didn't knew any other way to get rid of the pain, so you took your razor from the shower and took out the blade. With the razorblade in your one hand you sat on the ground looking at the blade first before you took a deep breath and sank the blade into your skin. You felt the sharp pain and blood dripping from your arm and started smiling under your sobs. The blade was taking the pain away for a short moment,
but it came back and you didn't wanted to feel it, so you slashed more and more of your skin open with your eyes closed, each time a little bit deeper. You opened your eyes and looked down at what you had done and left out a short shocked scream. You had cut way too deep and you knew it, you had opened your veins, blood already covering the whole ground around you. Loki who had heard your scream, ran towards the bathroom and hammered against it with his fists begging you to open the door, but did you
want him to rescue you? So often you had thought about killing yourself, but everytime you were too scared to do it and now you did it, if you wouldn't open the door you could die here. Loki who was still hammering against the bathroom door grew more worried "(Y/N) open the door! What happened? Are you okay? Please say something!" he shouted out, hoping he would get a response from you, but he didn't, cause you had already decided, you didn't want him to rescue you, you were craving
death more than anything right now so the pain would stop. You grew tired, caused from the loss of a big amount of blood and didn't really noticed as Loki broke down the door. He was shocked as he saw your pale body lying there in this big amount of blood with your arms cut open. "No! No No No! Please (Y/N) stay with me!" he screamed as he ran towards you, trying to stop the bleeding. "Hey stay awake (Y/N)! Focuse on me! Don't fall asleep!!" he said to you, feeling a tear falling down his cheek as you
didn't respond to him. He looked for a pulse and sighed in relief as he found one. He got the bleeding to stop and stitched your deep cuts up before taking you into his arms and going to your room were he laid you down on your bed, covering you with a blanket. He sat by your side the whole time waiting for you to wake up. You opened your eyes, still weak from the blood loss and saw Loki's worried face looking down on yours, tears still rolling down his cheeks. He noticed that you were awake and wanted to say
something but you did first "I'm so sorry Loki, I didn't want to make you sad" He took you in his arms and held you tightly, caressing your back and kissing your temple. "No, I'm the one who should apologize, you wouldn't have been so hurt if I hadn't said these horrible things to you! I-I'm so sorry I said that! I didn't mean it! You're the best thing that could have ever happened to me!" he cried, hugging you even tighter. You looked up and laid one hand gently on his cheek wiping away his tears. "I know
Loki, I know, it's okay I'm here, I'm alive!" you said still weak, trying to calm him down. He leaned into your palm enjoying your warmth and calmed down. "I don't wan't to loose you (Y/N), you mean the world to me! I love you! And I know I'm not good at words, but I-I want you to be with me forever! So I want to ask you! Will you marry me?" he said nervously. You were so surpised you couldn't bring out a word so you just nodded and kissed him with all your love...