SHE

Twenty eight

 "Beautiful?" Eden's angelic voice was waking me from my dreams.

I felt the bed shift, her moving next to me, then I felt her soft lips, moving from my shoulder to my neck. I couldn't help but smile. 

Her fingers were slowly sliding down my stomach. My muscles immediately tensed underneath her touch. This made feel things I had never felt before her, I don't think she would ever even comprehend what she does to me.

"You better wake me up like this all mornings," I breathed.

I bit my lip whilst she nibbled on my ear.

As much as I wanted to continue this pure pleasure, I couldn't ignore the footsteps coming towards my room. 

I quickly pushed Eden under the sheets, making her laugh: "fiesty. I like-"

That's when my dad knocked on the door. Eden instantly shut up while my dad walked in right after and looking at me, checking out the rest of my bed: "good morning, princess."

Eden's head was on my stomach, I could feel her hot breath on my skin. And here I was, trying not to be distracted. 

"Morning, dad. What's up?" I asked, not spending any time beating around the bush, wanting to stay alone with Eden.

He smiled, raising his brow: "in a rush, are we, princess? Just wanted to tell you Lucy called, saying she needed Eden's help at home."

I bit my lip, avoiding eye contact meanwhile trying very hard not to laugh: "and you're telling me because..?"

He laughed: "oh, I don't know. Maybe because she's in your bed? Good morning, Eden." 

Eden mumbled from under the covers: "morning."

I laughed, knowing how embarrassed Eden had to be right know. What a great way to spend a morning. 

"Apart from that - the breakfast is ready.." he said, "and your mom and I have to leave now, we have a plane to catch in half an hour. I know I said it'd be tomorrow, but we really need to go. Is that okay?" 

I was grateful he didn't say anymore about the topic. I had yet to tell Eden about the whole moving situation. But to me it didn't matter at the moment, we still had 2 months. She was right by saying we shouldn't focus on the future, had to live in the present.

"Oh, okay. That's alright. Call me when you land," I smiled, "and tell mom I'll miss her." 

"Will do, princess. I'll leave you both to it," he smirked, leaving the room. 

This was ridiculous, with Eden still hiding under the sheets.

"Not that I mind you staying there, but perhaps you're running out of air?" I laughed, raising the blanket.

She smiled at me awkwardly, still not moving her head from my stomach: "so that was awkward."

"Yeah, sorry about that," I couldn't stop laughing. 

She nudged my side, trying to make me stop laughing. 

"Ouch!" I fake whined, "can't you be more gentle?"

"Since when do you want it gentle?" she smirked, climbing on top of me. 

"I'll take whatever you offer, Harper," I teased, smiling.

She kissed her way up to my lips: "I better get going." 

No, please stay here, I thought. Let's just lie in this bed forever and make each other go wild.

"Okay, I guess you're right," I replied instead, "but I'll see you later, right?"

"Of course," she smirked, getting out of the bed and starting to put her clothes back on, "you can't starve me all day, after all."

I raised my brow, biting my lip: "I didn't even get breakfast yet. Perhaps Lucy can wait a little more?"

She laughed, ignoring my attempts of making her stay. She put on her jacket on, finishing her yesterdays outfit. Leaning over me, she placed a kiss on my forehead. 

"Are you okay?" she asked, "you know.. with your parents leaving."

She had no clue. 

"As long as you're here," I smiled. 

It was true, her presence alone was all I needed. I could live off of it.

"Okay, but if something's up, you know I'm here."

"I'll see you later, Gold," she said, getting off the bed, walking to the doors.

"I love you!" I said when she was already out of the door.

I sighed, yet another time I hadn't gotten a proper reply. I could only hope this doesn't become a habit. But then her grinning face appeared in the doorway, quickly walking towards me. She leaned down, raising my head with her hand, planting a passionate kiss on my lips.

Her eyes found mind when she pulled back, smiling: "I love you too Ruby Gold."

With that she winked at me and walked out of the door, leaving me completely breathless. 

I'll ask her to come to the UK with me, was my first thought. This was the realest thing that had ever come out of her mouth. For once, I knew she wasn't hiding anything, just loving me the way I loved her all along. So I made a decision.

I decided to come clean about it all as soon as I saw her today. I'd tell her about the brain cancer, I'd tell her about having to leave, I'd tell her I know about The Quietus. It all would finally be behind us and there would be no lies, no hiding things. It would be just us, our love for each other, and a lot of "I know this amazing italian place..".

I knew I loved her for quite a while, probably it was at the bottom of my brain the whole time, yet it took me a while to get it. It's a blissful feeling to be in love for the first time, to be so invested in a person you don't care about anything at all. But now, now that she had finally understood it as well, accepted her feelings for me, it couldn't compare to anything else. 

Putting on an oversized t-shirt I walked downstairs, feeling the quietness, loneliness that had overtaken the house once again. However, the waffle scent still lingered in the kitchen. 

I took my phone, turning on my spotify playlist. Music filled the house, thanks to the wireless speakers. I danced around, shaking my hips to the music. While dancing I took my pills, ate a waffle or two. This for sure had to be one of the best mornings I've ever had. 

I thought about Eden, how much I loved and already missed her. She fit so perfectly in my arms, as if she was meant to be there all along. I even smelled like her perfume, yet wanted her to be here to be able to drown in it. I was so in love even I thought it was cringy as hell, yet I couldn't help but grin and dance around like in one of these romantic movies. 

My thoughts were interrupted by a knock on my door. I grabbed my phone, turning the volume of the song down. 

"Be right there," I said loudly, walking to the door, thinking perhaps it was Eden, already finished with helping her mom. 

But once I had opened the door, there was no one there. Weird, I thought, furrowing my brows. And then I looked down, finding a pretty decent amount of clinched pages laying on ground. 

I picked it up. The first page had a title in bold "I'm sorry". What the hell, I thought. Someone had to be playing games with me. 

But then I turned the next page. My eyes widened as processed the words written, the pictures taken. I quickly flipped through them all, putting 2 and 2 together. 

"This can't be true," I said to no one in particular.