Free Vacation

Go After What You Want

“Cassie!  I know you’re in there, I saw lover boy leaving just a few minutes ago.  Open up!”  Gabe knocked again on his brother’s bedroom door and waited.  He heard cursing and the sound of something hitting the floor and then the door was opening.

“What is it, Gabe?  It’s late.”  Castiel glared in annoyance at his brother.

Gabe grinned as he looked his brother over.  Clothes were intact, including socks and slippers, though his shirt was slightly rumpled and untucked in one corner.  His messy hair was nothing to go by, it always looked like that.  It was a little disappointing.  He’d hoped his brother was up here getting some action.  Lord knew he needed it.

“I just got in last night.  Wanted to see my little brother.  We haven’t talked much lately.  How have you been?”

Castiel relaxed a bit, a soft smile playing at the corners of his lips.

“I’ve been well.  Work has kept me busy, but not too many accidents here.”  He stepped back to let his brother into the room.

“Is that all you came up here for, are you interested in the rumors about myself and Dean?  Judging from your comment as you knocked on the door.”  Castiel smirked as he returned to his chair by the window and after closing the door behind himself, Gabe joined him.

“Nah, I was just teasing.  If you’re into Dean, that’s cool.  If you’re not, then our brothers and sisters are apparently seeing things that aren’t there.  I haven’t met the man yet, or seen you with him, I’m just going off what they’ve said.”

Castiel sighed heavily as he looked his brother in the eye.

“I have enlightening conversations with Dean.  I enjoy his company.  There are few people I can be so free with, but I am comfortable with Dean.”

“And you think he’s hot.”  Gabe cocked an eyebrow.

Castiel rolled his eyes.  Though Gabe was the most crass and perverse of all the Novak children, he was the only one that had never treated him like he was weird or awkward.  In return, he was the one that tolerated his brother’s quirky nature the best. 

“And what would you say if I did?”

“I’d say it’s about damn time, and then I’d ask what you were planning to do about it?”  Gabe countered.

“I don’t know.  He’s wonderful, and incredibly attractive but I don’t know if he’d be interested in a relationship.”

Gabe chewed on the inside of his lip for a moment as he considered his brother’s words.

“But you’d like to pursue one?”

Castiel felt himself blushing for what felt like the hundredth time that day.

“I think I would.  I’ve only known him a few days, but yes, I’d like time to get to know him better.”

“And maybe hump like rabbits?”  Gabe was teasing but Castiel did want that.

“I grabbed his butt today.  On a dare.” 

“You what?”  Gabe cried,  “What the hell kind of dare was that?!”

Castiel chuckled and explained the challenge Dean had given him in the hot tub.

“Wait, you’re telling me you got to see Sam Winchester almost naked?  Fuck you’re lucky!”  Gabe slapped his hand on the table in annoyance and more jealousy than his brother had ever seen before.

“Well, to be fair, I wasn’t looking at Sam too hard.  He’s handsome, but he’s not Dean.”  Castiel was amused by his brother’s reaction.  Gabe was grumbling to himself and it was rather hilarious. 

“That was pretty ballsy of you.”  Gabe finally admitted.

“Yes, I surprised myself, but it was the only obvious way I felt I could respond to his flirting.  He started it.  I…finished it.”  Castiel shrugged.

“You sly dog, you.”  Gabe laughed.  Castiel found himself joining in. 

“He’s amazing, Gabriel.  I don’t think I’ve ever wanted anyone as much as I’ve wanted him.”

“Then go after him.  What were you guys doing in here anyways?  It wasn’t making out like teenagers like I expected.”

“We were having dinner, and talking.  I wanted to kiss him, or at least touch him, but he wasn’t making a move, so I was afraid to.”  Castiel was upset with himself for that.  He was in his 40’s, he should know how to flirt and go after what he wanted.  It hadn’t been this hard with Amelia, though thinking back, she had pursued him, and being religious, she hadn’t been much for flirting either.  Not having any sexual attraction to her probably didn’t make matters any better.  This was different.  He was deeply attracted to Dean, both to his mind and his body, and there was this pull he felt, drawing him to the man.  That was something he’d never experienced before and it was a little scary.  Maybe his brother was right?

“So if you want that, go for it.  You don’t need to flirt to find out what you want.  Ask him how he feels, but be honest about how you feel too.”

Gabe was right.  Sitting around and wondering about it wouldn’t get him anywhere.  If he wanted to know how Dean felt, his best bet was to ask him.  He pushed his chair back and stood up.

“I think I’ll go and talk to him now.”

Gabe clapped his hands together and stood up too.

“Good!  I’m going to go harass Hael for a bit.  I’ve missed her sassy wit.  You let me know how it works out, ok?”

Castiel was already marching towards the door.

“Yes, yes, I’m sure you’ll seek me out tomorrow.” 

He was out the door and already getting into the elevator when Gabe stepped into the hall and pulled the door closed.

“Damn right I will, little brother.  Damn right I will.”  He laughed softly to himself.