Ryan the shadow demon ( A creepypasta OC fanfic)

I've Tried

Once I leave the depressing scenery of what has become of my former village, I begin my voyage back into the forest where I once was. Along the path a remembrance of a lake comes across my mind as the sudden urge for water appears in my system. I sigh knowing that it may take awhile to scavenge around desperately for the source of water.

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After about an hour or so my esophagus has become dry and clean from any source of saliva and/or water my face scrunches up with worry and desperation as I frantically dart my eyes around from one scenery of trees and grass to another. I never thought  that my search for water would extend to this length. The sun that provided me with light and and a proper look at my surroundings was slowly dispersing, becoming less reliable than a mere flashlight. My mind racing, I make an endeavourous attempt to recall where the lake was when I saw it earlier. And almost as if on cue, an image of an enormous willow tree that laid beside a waterhole flashes across my mind. Beside the tree laid a path involving clovers as well as patches of grass with a healthy looking appearance.

A look of realization flashes across my visage as my shoulders relax knowing for certain that I was on the right path. I quicken my pace into a sprint clearly aware that I was merely five minutes away from my destination.

I recognize my surroundings as a good sign that I truly have been heading in the right direction. Not long after did I see the lake and reduce my pace into a light jog. I walk up to the lake, and go down to my knees to quench my thirst in a proper manner.

I dip my hands beneath the water and cup my palms together, when I raise my hands out, I held a reasonable amount of water cupped in. I raise the water to my lips and down the drink in a matter of seconds.

Once my thirst was satisfyingly quenched I gaze down at my reflection that appeared in the lake. Due to the fact that the sun has lowered itself behind the mountains, darkness was beginning to arise and I was able to distinctly see my glowing pupiless turquoise colored eyes. The light illuminating from them because of the darkness was impossible not to notice my unnatural features, I bring my ash colored hand towards my left eye and gingerly rest it just under my bottom eyelid; mouth slightly open, I quietly whisper to myself,

"I really am a monster."

My surroundings have grown completely dark as the  moon began to rise in place of the sun. A balmy breeze swept through the trees for a moment. I inhale deeply as I close my eyes quietly enjoying the peaceful silence that had taken over of my surroundings. After a few moments have passed I open my eyes just a bit to look at my reflection once more, all I could see now were two spots of blue light reflecting off the water, I take a deep breath and see my freakishly pearly white teeth in the reflection giving off the impression that they too glowed as well. I shake my head with a sigh disapproving my grotesque appearance.

I hug my knees as I look up at the night sky embellished with stars. I've tried to get help once, I've tried seeing a doctor about my looks,but all I got was a restraining order, whatever the hell that means, as well as death threats and looks of terror as well humans gasping and running away from me. I scoff at the thought, even my damn doctor ran out of the office screaming 'monster' at the top of his lungs.

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~A few years ago~

I walk through the town my head held low, back hunched, hands shoved into the pockets of my clothes, attempting to look as inconspicuous as possible as I walked into the hospital's doors and went over to the desks that were placed throughout the whole place,

"Hello! how are you doing today?"

"Fine, thank you." I mumble avoiding the urge to raise my head to look at the woman face-to-face.