Mark and Jacob Fan fiction

Chapter 2

 I was so mad! My anger issues were not coreperating with me. I was so mad I started to cry. Mark saw me and ran over. He grabbed me with a tight squeeze. Instead of holding him back I just cried, cried in his shoulder. I could not help my self I was so embarrased. I ran inside the hotel room. I was clean for 15 days but I started cut after cut gushing blood. Zoe walked in and saw me, she ran to me and dropped what ever I was cutting myself with. She ran to the bathroom to get a towel.  You have been 15 days clean and you start again! She yelled. The boys ran in and saw us cleaning up I roll down my sleeves to act like nothing happend. Mark ran over took my arm I tried to push him away but her had my sleeve in a tight grip. He looked at my cuts and sat there in schocked. I cried I did not know what to do. He yelled at me to for cutting. He asked me why I started to cut. I could not anwser, I ran out of the room. Zoe said ¨Guys I am the only one that knew it is just a family problem and when she gets mad she gets back at it. I yell at her telling her to stop but she finds something elese to cut with. Jacob walks over saw the razor with blood all over it. He said. Jacob threw it away. All the boys piled being Zoe when they finially found me in the cafe area crying in the dark corner. Zoe knew every time I am upset I go in a dark place and just and stare and say nothing. Zoe took them in th hallway and just started explain a little. She been stressinng so much because her faimly fights, her dad left her when she was 4, her stepmom stopped letting her see her dad. She has not had the guts to tell anyone it took 2 years of trust to get it out. Then she got so worked up and started cutting. She said if I told anyone that.... Nvm but still let's just get her and get our manager to get us to playlist! ¨She said. Everyone walked in Mark went up to me and grabbed me. He hugged me so tight I could not breathe he said that if I have problem that I should tell him. But I do not tell anyone cause no one understands I feel lost in the world I do not understand anything anyone, I wish I could stop. Zoe called our manager and told her the story about the fans she called more ubers. We were 1 hour late to Playlist. We walked in and everbody look suprised. I just kept walking, ZOe and I went to the bathroom I cleaned my face up and I looked in the mirror. I said  what i thought was to my self but ended up being loud. Am I worth it? Why am I doing this to my self? I use to love being able to be happy! But now I lost it. Zoe knew I did not mean to say that out loud so she did not say anything. My sweat shirt had blood stains all on it so I took it off . I wraped it in the gauze I had brought. I walk out of the bathroom and Marked looked at me. The swwet blue eyes stayed on me for awhile now. I walk toward him and he kissed me on the chhek and then hugged me he told me that I am so worth it and you need to stop cutting. And the last thing he said was I know you have family problems but, I love you. Those words were still processing in my head. I love you . I have not heard any one say that to me since I have been going crazy. His eyes stares at me but I did not look I could feel the glance. I had no ideas or thoughts all in my mind I love you . Do you know what love is anymore? Love seemes to strong to say so I said, thank you. He looked at me  funnybut kinda understood so we left it there.