Complicated Not Really

senior year

The whole summer I was shacked up with college prep classes to get me ready for college the thing is I had my whole summer by myself, Tom had gone out of town. Two weeks before school starts he gets back.later that week I get a text from Tom that said: “hey bumble bee I'm on my way back home I'll stop by when I land “. So several hours later I get a knock at my door and hear “hello anyone here be, Mr.and Mrs.lopez. “ I opened the door and it was a curly brown hair tall guy, I screamed and gave him the biggest hug ever and a kiss.we hung out the whole day we just stayed in because tom just got off a plane. So a week later we started school I've been thinking about breaking things off with tom because I want to focus on being myself so a few days later I told tom I needed space to pass senior year and what we had was great but we need to focus on this year. He was furious with me and he said, baby, I will respect your wishes and OK I will find a way to your heart again I love you and I will always love you always. I love you too. So I see him in the halls passing him by I never got the courage to talk to him but the stares and smiles were enough. Levi and Kyrie would ask me if I was OK all the time. The things have done over the last week have been putting my tom related things in a box we had so many memories together. On with being me, I have gotten many offers from colleges all my years I have gotten higher than 4.0. My education is my life and pursuing my career is my goal. My career is being an artist or an art teacher I love kids it would be awesome to teach them and maybe have some of my own.

The next few weeks I have been getting better at turning in my assignments in early. So in the last couple days, I saw tom with a girl in my class Olivia it hit me in my gut really hard I thought I wouldn't be such the jealous type but I am I guess. In my life, I have always been focused on myself, not other people's life but I'm still in love with that guy. Every day I see tom and Olivia my skin just boils like for real. So I have a writing class this year and here’s one of my entries Once an upon a day I was walking down the street on my way to school and I hear. " hey are you 26520" I looked around me and I see across the street a blonde haired boy around 6.2 and may I just add he’s cute. I replied "50913". " Yep that's me nice to meet you ". " you too I'm Becca but people call me Becs”. " well hello Becks I'm Chris but people call me c " um wait that sounds familiar there's a kid in my class that's called c he's a basketball player. "Do you go to AVL do you play a sport". "Yes I do I play basketball hey aren't you in all my classes with me." yes I do he crosses the street and we talked a lot more as we approached the school. yea I know right crazy how the world is so small you meet a friend playing video games and he or she goes to the same school. As I was in class right there’s a classmate of mine named Brian kept looking at me and a few minutes later he comes and sits next to me and says “ hey what are you writing if you don’t my mind I can help you with your story “

I'm writing a story about these two strangers met playing video games not yet in person on their way to school they run into each other playing the game, didn't know they have classes with each other, and yea, you can help me, you can write the guys perspective on the meeting and stuff”. So Brian and I would meet up every day to consult on our book project. As we hang out to get this done I have noticed he’s falling for me I'm not into him as he's with me. More than I think about it I could be falling for him as well with his dark skin, beautiful brown eyes, his smile and he’s every cute damn I like him. I always thought I wouldn’t like anyone but tom, I was wrong. So I kept it casual two months in the making of this book and we are at my house finishing the book and Brian says “ when we are done with this book can we still hang out, talk about anything I don’t want this to be a business thing ok” “ I would like to hang out with you more sometimes it gets a little lonely with all my friends together I feel I need another friend to talk to”. So we started to talk a little more we would disappear out of nowhere we really only wanted each other's company, not others. Two weeks we finally made it official we felt it was right. Towards the year I've fallen a little behind so I had Brian help that was a good idea we would fall off topic really easy I would be distracted by his beautiful brown eyes. A few months later, Levi, Andy, Kyrie, and Ariana sat me down and said “ I know you're happy but brian is not helping with the education part, you are going have to end it or I'll tell him and you know I will Girl Don’t Test me ” Kyrie said. I stay quiet because what she was saying was true. That day I went to his house and told him I needed space. He was hurt but he was fine with it. I brought my grades up and took this lesson to heart. So a week before graduation we have a whole week of fun. On one of our trips tom grabs my hand and says “senior year is over I love you I want to be with you, through this whole year I couldn’t stop thinking about you”.  “ me to i didn’t think I miss you as much as I did I love you as well”. A few seconds later we went to my friends and told them the great news, of course, they freaked out. We hung out like we never skipped a beat. Yea we finished high school my friends and I got ready in our cap n’ gown. Of course, I balled duh I'm a girl. I told my friends are we ever going to see each other again, and said I sure we'll see each other at Bea and Tom's wedding. Kyrie said yes we will. " guys that won't happen anytime soon" Tom and I said.