The Casanova Prince

Chapter 4: Don't fall for me

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Ian's service continued and every other afternoon the same man would come in my room to be serviced without fail. He also have some other man coming and going in my room but I know that they are just there for pleasure.

Though I am amazed with that man's love, it is my first time seeing an unrequited love first hand. Until now I can't fathom if it's really love or just plain stupidity. Why would you even think of loving someone that you know won't love you back? It's like grabbing a rock and hitting yourself with it.

Everyday, even if I see the man smiling at the sight of the man he loves I can still see a glint of sadness in his eyes. He's like a diabetic longing to eat sweets, he can eat it but it would make him sick.

I am at Austin's dorm again. By me coming here means they're at it again in my room. I thought I won't get used to it but it seems like it is now my everyday routine.

"So you're finally a full pledged resident of this lounge, huh?" Austin asked as he dropped his card, we're playing 'baccarat' to pass the time. I answered defensively "Given the mint we pay in tuition every year, I'm gonna use these public spaces however I see fit, so just let me be."

I know I'm being an ass with the way I act, I'm also being ungrateful even though Austin is keeping me company, but it irritates me when I am being reminded of what the situation is between my new roommate and me. I know Austin is someone that gets pleasure teasing me so he continued "Yeah but you're making a fortune off that guy, aren't ya? I'm really jealous."

I am already used to his teasing so it really doesn't get me, well sometimes. "You could say so" I replied with a sigh. 'I've even lost track of how many times it's been now. Not that I ever plan on using that money' I thought.

"So how much is your cut? Ballpark it for me." He said leaning with a malicious look. I don't know how to answer and can't look him in the eyes so I changed the subject and said "Oh! Would you look at the time! It's been 3 hours. Time sure flies when you are enjoying what you're doing. It's also late so I'm heading back now. Bye."

I immediately ran out of the room and left Austin hanging. If I stayed there for another minute I know Austin would bug me with so many questions that I don't know the answers  myself. I am almost at the door when I heard Austin shouting "You know what they say.. Curiosity killed the cat." I ignored him and continued walking.

My mind was occupied with thoughts of what Austin meant when he said 'curiosity killed the cat'.

Yes I am curious of what Ian was doing when he 'services' his clients. Though I'm not that innocent that I don't know the answer to that question since I have had girlfriends before but I can't imagine him doing it with the same sex.

I'm not against his preference since he have his freedom to choose what and who he wants but I don't really get it. His handsome and girls would die to have him. They would be head over heels for him.

With that thought in mind I didn't notice that I'm almost at my room. I got back to my senses when I heard a sound coming from our room. Its getting louder and louder as I come near the door.
"Ahh..."

"I-ian.."

"Harder.."

I can clearly hear their hard breathing, the creaking of the bed and moaning pleasure. I was pinned where I stand, starring at the door blankly. I can't seem to move my feet. I know what to do at that moment.

'They're still... I have to get away from here' I told myself.

I wanted to walk away but I can't make a single step and worst, as if my hand have a mind of its own it reached for the door knob and twisted it open.

Don't look, Don't look, I kept repeating to myself but I can't stop my feet from walking inside the room. And there I saw Ian standing at the foot of my bed taking the man from behind.

I can see the pain and pleasure at the other mans' face. He was giving out his love cries while clutching the sheet of the bed as if almost tearing it apart.

Ian broke his concentration with what he was doing, though he still continued thrusting, and looked up to me, I met his eyes and he said, "I'm not.. Finished yet.. Can you wait outside.. Just a little bit longer?" He was having a hard time saying those words as he needs to pause to continue his thrusts.

I automatically said "I'm sorry!" and walked as fast as I can to get out of the room and I have the door behind me.

I can't erase the image I just saw in the room. Seeing their ecstatic faces as they near their climax. I slapped myself to awake from my thoughts. What was I apologizing for? They're the one who broke our agreement, they used my bed with whatever they were doing. But it was my fault for looking.

I sat outside the room for about 15 minutes, that was the longest 15 minutes of my life, when the door opened and the man Ian was servicing went out. He held the door open and as he was going outside he said to Ian "See you around." As he closed the door our eyes met.

I can see that he was surprised but then he apologized and said, "You caught me in unseemly state.." I immediately averted my eyes from him.

I was not disgusted with what I saw. I just can't take it if he sees my flustered face if I have not looked away. It took me some time to stand up since my knees seemed weak and it can't support me.

I walked inside the room again and saw Ian now sitting on his bed, his bed is for a single person while I have a king sized bed, I stopped on my table as he started to speak, "Such a pity, I'd really thought things might work out with you but we didn't even last the agreed-upon-2-week trial period, huh?" I can't bare hearing those words, 'now it's my fault?' I thought while clenching my hand to a fist.

"I'm sorry you had to see that. It probably disgusted you, didn't it?" He asked casually as he fix his glasses. I don't know if he uses it for fashion or function but he looks damn sexy wearing it. I think I'm having a fetish with glasses now.

"No-- I should be the one apologizing! I should've left the room immediately." I can't understand what I'm feeling. I want to be angry, I want to scold him with what he did and blame him for what I'm feeling. He made me so confused that I hate myself for getting this affected by him. The things he do does not concern me. But why is it that there is something that draws me closer to him?

"Wha.." He tried to speak and I know where it would lead so I cut him off and said "There's no reason whatsoever for you to leave. I--I just couldn't help being a little curious.." Yes, that was it, I was curious. 'For some reason, I wanted to see how you look when you.." as I continued what I wanted to say on my head. My head is down as I can't bear to see him eye to eye. I was having some weird thoughts that I myself don't understand. I never imagined myself having those kinds of thoughts and nothing less towards the same sex.

Though I can't seem to hate him stirring my emotions. I can't also blame him with what I'm feeling. Maybe it's because I find him mysterious that's why I'm drawn to him.

I don't know how long was I silent but I got back to my senses when he finally said "Don't fall for me."

I stand up straight as I heard what he said. It's like I was poured with cold water, I went stiff. I stared at him with confusion, "Don't fall in love with me" he said again, maybe just to make himself clear.

I can't help myself from trembling. I don't know what I was feeling at that time. But I answered, "Of Course I'm gonna love you. We're friends, right?" Yes! I am his friend. It was just friendship. Nothing more.

Finally he smiled as he said "You have a point."

That's right we are friends.

We are ONLY friends.