The Girl Who Seemed Unbreakable, Broke // J.G. /// part 1

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by MegannScottt

by MegannScottt

Warning! This contains suicide and self-harm. I do not promote suicide or self harm, if you ever feel like self harming or suicide please seek help. My dm's are always open.

Y/N's POV
THE GIRL WHO SEEMED UNBREAKABLE
Bursting out crying alone and you realise that no one truly knows how unhappy you are because you don't want them to know. I lay in bed, for hours in the dark, at night, thinking about every possible way I've fucked up my life "I can't take it anymore, why am I here" I whisper to myself.
Hedwig's theme runs through the walls of the bathroom
The Girl Who Always Laughed, Cried

The tears spilled over my eyes as I realised the reason Hedwig's theme was playing was because Jared was calling. He let me down. I hate depending on people. They always disappoint you by letting you down when you need them the most. That's why I don't depend on anyone, they always let me down.

The Girl Who Never Stopped Trying, Finally Gave Up

I'm so tired of always being the nice one. I'm always the first one to ask if you are ok but I get nothing back. I'm always the one who is there for everyone and cares but no one cares about me. When I'm sad I realise how alone I am in this world and how no one gives shit about me.

She Dropped Her Fake Smile As A Tear Rolled Down Her Cheek

I stand up. I look in the mirror. I cry. I look at how ugly I am. I look at the fat on my stomach. I want to die. I used to not wear make up. I used to not straighten my hair. I used to not care about what people think of me. I used to go weeks without crying. I used to be happy. What happened?

She whispered to herself 'I can't do this anymore'

I open the cabinet, pull out a bottle of pills. Just as a pour the pills into the palm of my hand and as I go to down them there is a knock on bathroom door. "Y/n? Are you ok?!" I hear Jared yell
I leave a note beside the bottle of pills on the bathroom counter before whispering "give up on me, I'm a lost cause"
Jared starts to beat down the door and my vision starts to become blurry before I collapse to the floor. The last thing I see before my eyes fall shut is jared finally managing to break down the door.
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Sorry that was so depressing... I wasn't meant to end like that but it kinda happened... sorry