Before I could even think of something to say that wasn't "wowza" or something else wierd Lafayette and Hercules opened the door, "I'm John laurens and I'm totally not gay look at me just heterosexualing it up" Laf was doing a funny hand gesture John always did but I had no idea what the rest of this was about.... did John just come out? The second Hercules started joining in John left, I thought about following to make sure he wasn't really upset, but then I saw him dying of laughter. "Wait so was that the first time he said he was gay?" John came back the very second I said that "no of course it wasn't" by then the others were in hysterics. I am going to assume that's a yes then, why would he come out to me of all people? I decided to just not think about that. But oh boy what my decided to think of was much worse, I quickly found myself developing feeling for my new roommate... I'm officially doomed. ~this time skip is sponsored by me being lazy~ We were walking back to our rooms "I'll leave you alone with your boyfriend" Laf winked, John and I had this ackward moment of silence with both our faces looking like tomatoes. I eventually went over to my desk and started typing on my laptop, it started off as a essay for school but quickly changed subjects to the stuff that had happend today. I was so focused on what I was writing I didn't even notice John had came in "what are you writing" he was sitting in the chair next to me "uh just some stuff for school" it was definitely not school at this point but what else was I supposed to say? "Can read it?" Oh god nope Nope Nope "uh well it's um not finished and it's very bad and i-" he grabbed the laptop of the desk "I'm sure it's great" please please please don't get to the part about to today... after a few seconds I saw his face turn red, yup he may or may not have just read me describing his face as 'perfect and adorable', he let out I half nervous chuckle and set my laptop down "your cute" he walked out. Wait what? No he was just saying that to make things seem less ackward. He did just read my writing about how cute I thought he was... my life is over. Welp now I'm gonna go stew in a pot of my own embarrassment for the rest of the year. ~~John's pov~~ That was a prank right? There was no way he actually liked me, I don't even like me. Ugghhh why are boys so confusing? I flopped on the couch and checked my phone, fifteen messages from Peggy all along the lines of "has my ship sailed yet?"
I'm trying to control my thoughts but their everywhere. I tried to sit down and draw but I kept coming back to Alexander, I accidentally drew a turtle with his face on it. Not my best work. Okay maybe I should just go talk to him, I mean I think I kinda played it of as though I wasn't mentally screaming. Surprisingly I found the courage to go talk to him. I knocked on our door, but there was no response so I just walked in. I found Alexander crying his bed. Oh god I'm absolute rubbish at comforting people, the only thing I could think to do was to wrap my arms around him "uh shh it's gonna be okay" I don't even know what's wrong, was it about earlier? "I-I'm sorry" he sobbed into my chest "you didn't do anything wrong" Okay I'm one hundred percent sure that this is about what happend. Damn I messed up. "You probably think I'm really weird" I know it sounds cheesy but my heart was breaking at how sad he was "I-I don't think your weird at all" he looked up at me wiping the tears out of his eyes. I never liked the quiet before that moment. We sat there for a while, until Herc, Laf, Eliza, Angelica, and Peggy, walked in "SUP" Hercules yelled "OoOo did we interupted you two?" Lafayette smirked at us, "n-no" yup I'm not helping at all "suuurree" Peggy remarked "what did you guys even come here for anyway?" I stood up and leaned on the wall "your the only one who's gone grocery shopping, we came here for dinner" Angelica said well walking to I'm assuming the kitchen "fine, but I'm not cooking it" we all ate some weird French dish that Laf made, it was good but I can't for the life of me pronounce it. We talked for a while (with Alex on his laptop) and then everyone went home. I was just about to tell Alexander he should go to bed when I found him asleep on his keyboard. I carried him to his bed, "night Alexander". I walked over to my bed and fell asleep.
Heeyyy so my Internetcrashed I think it was cuzwhere I live it was raining a lot. Also here's an awful sketch that was born late at night of Lin Manuel Miranda's face on a turtle
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(It's digital but I wanted it to look like a sketch so I used a weird thing on the computer) anywho byyeeee -dancingdancedead
