Teardrops

Prologue

I've been waiting for almost 1 decade.

I keep on waiting and waiting.

Till,

I migrate to a new country at this young age.

I don't know what to do.

But, I remember what my goal is. And this is a big opportunity to fulfill my goals.

Since I was a kid I dreamed for this before.

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But right now I am HERE!

What a magic,

Is was like yesterday that my dad applied to be a nurse in this country.

I couldn't believe that I am really here.

But I feel depressed because I am very far away from my home.

All I could think is,

What will happen if I would live here forever?

First thing I was scared about is "school."

S-C-H-O-O-L as in "SCHOOL?"

It's a big yes!

Number 1 that I hate what will happen to me in school is bullying. You want to know why?

Because I have no friends, No one knows me and I am new to this country.

Well if you're asking me if I have some best friends in my home town.

Oh YEAH! It's a big yes!

I have a lots of friends in my birth place. Like I can't count it. Well, before I left my home I invited them to my farewell party. So, not all of them came. But I am happy that the party is still not over because my very best friend did come.

They cried and I cried too.

It's so sad leaving your love ones and your best friends because you'll be not seeing them in a very long time. Before leaving my home I cried very hard even though in that flight is only connected to a another city that is also far away from my home country. This is my first flight, and my 2nd flight is going to Japan. Well as you can see Japan is not the country that I will migrate to. It was just a stopover but atleast I came to Japan. Even it's just a very short visit.

My 3rd stop is to Portland! Oh yeah! Your are right! I am moving to America because it's obvious, Portland is part of USA. But I am not staying to Portland I have another connected flight which is going to LA, California. Very tiring, huh? Yes it is, I can't sleep on the plane even for 1 hour. So my eyes are extremely tired. Not so extreme, but for me that's my opinion. ;)

But it is LA is the state where I will live?

NO! 👎🏼

I have 2 hours drive going to santa margarita. Woah, it is really a very long journey. Well of course I have a family here in America that's why we will stay here in California for 10 days only. Then we will be moving to......

MINNESOTA.

Wha?!

Minnesota? Did we hear it right?

Yes you hear me right. Was I talking to myself? Hehe, kinda funny right? But nah! This is serious. I don't want to live in a cold weather place. Especially I don't want to live away from my family. I just want to live here in California but I have no choice I have to wait for 3 years until my dad will finish his contract. And after 3 years we will be moving to California. Yehey!👏

13 years of living in my home town.

I felt like I've been leaving everything that is also part of my life.

My families and relatives.

My best friends.

My house.

My former schools.

And everything.

My life couldn't get easy. It gets harder and harder.

I thought I will be happy but still it's the same.

Gosh what on earth?! My dreams are come true but I feel there's a missing piece.

A piece that will make my life complete. But what if that piece is missing? I don't know what kind of piece is that. And I don't know either 🤷‍♀️ how to solve this kind of situation. I'm too young to decide on my own. But I have right to say my opinions.

The piece breaks my heart into pieces.

If you only know my story.

My life is incomplete.

My friends thought I'm happy. Yes, I'm happy because my childhood dreams came true.

But it doesn't mean I will be happy forever.

Some people are judging me.

Some people are not understanding me.

And some people are mean.

X_X dead or alive my life won't be complete without that missing piece.

My life is full of sadness mixed with happiness.