I'm Young.

I Want & I Know

Nayeon knows that what she is doing is wrong but, she wants what she wants. Jeongyeon loves her and Nayeon wants the blonde to always smile the way she has been ever since they've gotten together. Chaeyoung is what she wants, she likes all the emotions that chaeyoung gives her even the small amount of hatred she's been giving her the past two days they've been in Australia. She just wants a happy world where no one gets hurt, it's completely selfish but she had the excuse of how young she was, so of course she was selfish. Tzuyu knows her game which is something she didn't want and now here she had Jihyo forcing her to spit out what was going on with her. Saying, "I know you want something with chae, you think i don't watch you're every move but i saw what happened at the beach and you're going to tell me what the hell you're playing at with both of them." So she does, she spills everything, how Jeongyeon confessed and then later that night so did Chaeyoung. How Chaeyoung had found her and Jeong in the kitchen and only looked at her as Jeongyeon was hitting all of the right spots. How now Tzuyu was involved in knowing everything before jihyo and was preventing her from being able to make the little cub crack.

To say that Jihyo didn't give her a look of utter disgust was an understatement, she had even slapped nayeon; telling her that she needed to stop her bullshit and stick with Jeongyeon because that is what she chose, but in reality she didn't choose Jeongyeon, Jeongyeon chose her and who was she to be cruel and break the girls heart. Chaeyoung was who she always wanted, and she was choosing to go after her and if her newfound girlfriend found her two fingers deep in chaeyoung no ounce of her would care, she never chose Jeongyeon. Jihyo left after watching her for a good ten minutes, they didn't say anything more but she knew that now she had more eyes on her, more people to keep her from the one person that was hers. It made it even worse that not long after Jeongyeon came in and smirked at her. The blonde kissed her roughly and so she put her acting skills to work. Nayeon wasn't repulsed, Jeongyeon was a beauty to look at, she just didn't want her.

Jeongyeon wasn't someone who could be fooled not even being deeply in love with Nayeon made her blind to the fact that her now girlfriend was secretly wanting chaeyoung. It was evident in the way Nayeon's eyes darkened or glistened whenever she would stare at her younger friend. Nayeon's eyes never did that when it was her looking into them. Jeongyeon decided she wanted to be selfish, she didn't want to lose Nayeon after being in love with her for so long: so she pretended to be stupid. She turned a blind eye whenever Nayeon would look at Chaeyoung and reminded herself that she was with her and wasn't anyone else's. The beach though, them at the beach. Nayeon so close to chaeyoung, ready and willing to ravish her. It made her feel sick, Nayeon wasn't a cheater, she couldn't be. Nayeon was wonderful and her definiton of sunshine. She was supposed to know everything about her but, now, with how she is with Chaeyoung it's something she has never seen. It makes her want to try harder because that should be something she sees, that she gets to feel when they touch each other because it's lethal and she is ready to feel what death feels like when it comes to Im Nayeon.

Nayeon sees Jeongyeon everywhere that day. Granted they're filming for pocari sweat and all nine of them are together but Jeongyeon is being downright clingy and it makes her want to hurl. Jeongyeon was always the: skinship is forbidden type of person, even when they began dating she would always give her the space she needed during the daytime and only be wanting to cuddle and kiss her at night time. She feels like she has no air to breathe because at every turn Jeongyeon is in front of her with her big smile and shinning eyes, telling her how beautiful she looks and giving her tiny kisses on every part of her face. Nayeon hasn't even had the opportunity to look at Chaeyoung today, properly she means, and the thought makes her want to punch Jeongyeon but she knows she can't, Jeongyeon's too wonderful and too lovely to her for Nayeon to even think about hurting her physically. She needs to understand why her girlfriend is being really weird, so she grabs her arm gently and pulls her away from everyone and asks calmly, "are you okay, why are you so..you know?"