It All Started With A Cup Of Coffee...

Chapter 10: God had other plans

                         Jack's p.o.v.

That part I remember all to well... Kept coming back in flashes. I wanted today to be perfect and it was until the incident at the restaurant. I thought everything was going to be perfect today... But God had other plans...

You thought it was over you know, just keeps coming back in flashes you know? They just slip right out of your hands, they slipped out of your hands because your paying attention to everything else when you know they was the only person they needed in the world and you needed them. You never know how much you need them to make today good. When they leave your site you act like it's okay but it's not, you see them once again in the future but they won't even remember your name because they were people that you have to have to let go. When you let them go to friends. when I leave you heartbroken but when they need you the most. Used to be there because that's your best friend holding the gate that you hold to let them go. What I'm trying to say is you never know how much you need them until you let them go and notice how you life was better with them around you and that's what I witnessed today being alone in the bathroom with Alex without mark was that my life was ready to end the suffering I had to go through until mark came and save me. You might think I haven't realized that day was perfect because I ended it really good but no! Alex ruined it. He went to jail and I hope that he don't get free because of what he did because he raped me! I want you to feel what I felt when one of them rape you in the shower. I wouldn't do nothing out the person I needed the most the he has somebody, me. All I know if feel the pain that I felt sticking his finger up his arse. You can't really but give somebody who have done so much that causes you to go through so much because what they can't have or what they can't desire. For you people out there who's gone through what I have gone through you're not alone. Life is short, you have to live it to the moment but something as little as this can tie it down. Open waiting to fly his hotel but it's small pebble and it's possible as much as hard it is to Let It Go you have to let it go and move on because once the bed is out of the way the Goodwill start to show and that's what I thought until today...