The snow laced itself through my dark straight hair thats slowly but surely turning in to lose messy curls but i didn't care i was almost at the train station and i was ready to make the memories that id never forget.
My good feeling didn't last long when i stood alone on the platform. I rub my scared wrist carefully as the flashback takes place and powerless i let it take me back to the time where i wasn't living but just existing, i was a vessel of pain and hurt that hated herself so much she thought the best way to exist was to not exist at all.
Im pulled away from my thoughts to the screeching of the train wheels coming towards me. I board cautiously trying not to be noticed best i can, finding a window seat a sigh of relief comes from my lips and i stare in to the oblivion whilst the train rattles on through my steel made city. I finally arrive in town centre inhaling the smoggy air and exhaling it making it even smoggier. I looked through the crowd of the station blending in with the town with our dark hair and dark eyed uniform that we all seemed to have but there he was. Standing directly in front of me his blonde hair reflected the sun perfectly, his blue eyes pierced my dark hazel ones and in that moment i felt alive. In that moment all of my feelings were gone and it was just me and him staring at each other not wanting to break the contact of the only person who made me feel that i wasn't just existing with him Im now living. Breathlessly i approach the tall muscular figure and my face cracks a small unwelcoming smile which makes him smile more, my heart is racing uncontrollably how can someone be this beautiful? He's so different from the people i surround myself with in that moment i knew.
The conversations were and sweet but had so much meaning i couldn't believe how down to earth he is. Finally someone who will understand me, his hand in mine feel strong but trying to be gentle and all i wanted is to live in the moment of it being me and him forever. As the night grows in on us and twilight falls Im faced looking straight in to his pale eyes that are cleansing mine. His hand at the back of my neck sends shivers down my spine and his lips on mine sent a firework sensation throughout my entire body never wanting to let him go or let this moment slip away. I look up at him and he looks down to me then whispers hold on to me. The walk back to the station went so fast but i had the most amazing time being in his arms, then when finally on the platform he kisses my forehead tells me goodbye and watches me board my train and in that moment i feel a tear of happiness roll down my cheek. And i think to myself i will never leave ill hold on to you as long as you need my perfect boy.
