(**COMPLETED**)didn't your mother warn you about creepy girls? (Ricky Horror)

chapter fucking 19

Lily's pov 2 months later.

"Is she what you want now?" I asked with tears running down my face.

"No. But I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you" ricky said.

I nodded and walked out of my house and ubered to angelos house

I can't stop thinking about the fight with ricky. I handed him back his ring.  I left without another word.

Here's the thing about cheating. I can understand if it's just sex. If it was physical I wouldn't have cared as much. But it wasn't. It was emotional cheating.

He had been talking to this girl he met at a coffee shop. I know she knew fully that he was engaged and had a baby girl on the way.

He cheated. It may not have been a kiss or them having sex but he cheated. He fell Inlove with a new girl who wasn't me.

"Cut. " I said. We were shooting this gothic themed film. It was about love and other shit and it was really cool. I'm Co directing with Eli this time.

"That was great, shiloh but this time take in the feeling that your lover is dead and she's now a ghost " I said to shiloh.

After shooting the scene it was time for lunch. Which was great. Ryan came by to visit on set

"So how is everything " he asked touching my pregnant belly.

"Fine for the most part. I'm basically a Baloo though " I laughed while munching on some fries

"So... ricky" he said before I cut him off

"Shitkowski my dear. Who is the one person I forbid you from talking to me about " I said sipping my water

"Lily he's completely fallen apart. He doesn't leave your guys room" he said.

"Good for him. How's him and what's her face" I asked

"They're not together " Ryan said sighing

"Ryan listen. He may not have said he didn't want us anymore but I pretty much did and so did his actions. And I was okay with that. I'm over it. He should be too. " I said.

Suddenly ryan looked down and I was in excruciating pain. There was blood running down my legs

"Somebody. Call an ambulance " Ryan screamed. One of the techs were on the phone

"Lily what's going on " he asked holding me up.

"I think im miss carrying" I said holding my stomach and trying to stay standing up.

The next thing I know im in the hostpital.

I had to have a late term abortion because the baby had already died.

She was hemorrhaging inside my body. She was helpless and I couldn't save her.

After the operation I was laying in my bed. Unable to speak. Unable to really think. All I wanted was ricky. I shouldn't have walked out. I shouldn't have walked away from him.

I shouldn't even be thinking like this. I should hate him.

Eli came in with flowers. I just stared at him.

"How are you feeling champ?" He said
I just continued starring.

"Okay. Well. Whenever you're ready to come back to work. You can " he said giving me a sympathetic smile.

"I..." I started to say.

He turned around and looked at me 

"I don't want to live anymore " I said crying.

He came over to my bedside and hugged me. And held me while I dramatically sobbed.

I stopped once angelo walked in.

"Hey baby sister" he said looking at me.

"I'll give you guys some privacy" Eli said walking out.

"Angelo..." I trailed off.

"I don't know what to say or do to make this better " he said holding my hand.

"Angelo. Leaving ricky was the worst thing I've ever had to do.  And then today. The baby... she " I said before sobbing uncontrollably.

"I know lil" he said rubbing his thumb across mine.

I eventually fell asleep.

Three months later still lily's pov

I was editing with Eli. I pretty much dove into my work after losing the baby.

I still live with ricky. But he lives in the guest room. Throughout everything I love him. I care for him. And he's my bestfriend. But right now I hate him. We don't speak. I only told him about the baby a week after it happened.

Whenever he tries to talk to me I ignore him. All of the things he's given me over the last 8 years now live in the garbage.

I talk to ryan and Chris sometimes And I talk to rave on occasion but I mainly just work.

Our other movie that we filmed came out and it has a 99% rating on rotten tomatoes. Everyone really liked it. I hope we do this well with this movie.

I have alot of money from the last one. Which is great. But I don't know what to do with my money.

After we finished editing the last bits of the film I went home. I went straight into my room and cuddled ville before showering.

It was about 7pm and I decided to go get the rest of my neck piece finished.

It was leather face and Wednesday addams. Rave and Ange tag teamed my neck and it ended up looking bad fucking ass.

They kept trying to talk but I'd just look away from their eyes and stay silent.

"Maybe you should go to this show tomorrow night " I heard a familiar voice say. It was jace, torys bassist. I walked up to him and hugged him

"What time" I asked

"6pm you loser. But on another note. Do you want to hang out tonight?" He asked.

I looked at ange and rave and they were just smiling.

"Sure" I said giggling a bit.

"Badass. Let's go" said walking out with me.

We walked all the way to my house and inside.

When we got there ricky was sitting on the couch. He just glared at Jace and I 

"Hey rick " Jace said

"Jace " ricky said before getting up and leaving.

"Sorry about that " I said laughing before sitting on the couch with Jace. We started to talk about a bunch of things. Mainly skating and music. Which was amazing. It reminded me of when ricky and I would have these endless amazing conversations. I missed him and those so much.

After a while Jace left and before he did he kissed me.  I don't know what happened but I kissed back.

"I'll see you tomorrow?" He asked

"Mhm " I said before he kissed me again and left.

What the fuck am I doing to myself.

After I shut the door I saw ricky staring at me.  He looked shocked and sad. And very scared. He just sat on the steps and I looked at him

"What is it ricky?" I blurted out maybe a little to rudely.