Luis Coronel: relationship ; book 1

Chapter 3; asking me out

I arrived at Olive Garden. Luis was waiting for me outside. He was leaning on his car . He asked me to go inside it was already late night. It was pretty chilly out. We got inside and we both ordered the shrimp scampi. Then we ate and talked like the good friends we are. When we finished we went out and went to some hills to look out at the stars. There was a lot of people there. Then Luis looked at me in the eye and touched my face. I tensed Up! I didn't know what to do, then right there he asked me to be his girlfriend.

"I.....I ..I can't "
" why?"
"I cant tell you here"
"Ok, can we talk about it somewhere else?"
I nodded

We climbed to the truck. My tears running down my face.

" look,it's not you, you really aren't the problem, I know that when people say that, you really are the problem, but you are not, not in this case"

" you know you can count on me"
" i know i can, its just that............,you see these scars right here?" I say pointing to my wrists showing the scars I would never dare to show anyone else.

" yeah I see them what's wrong"

"Well nobody knows the story behind them except for my aunt, she is the only one that knows, everyone else in my family thinks they were for attention after my parents got divorced , but it really wasn't, you know you might find it strange or maybe even funny but i have never been in a real serious relationship before, and I don't feel comfortable dating a guy just yet , it's been so long since my last relationship, but anyways that is not why I cut myself .  I started doing this because I was sexually abused while living at my dads. I got pregnant and I had an abortion. Not even my mom knows. My dad didn't care he would always see me cry and he would just  walk past me. He would always blame everything on me even if something had happened to hours ago, and I had been out for the past 5 hours, it was still me. Everything bad was me, everything nice was everyone else. One day my aunt Rosie came to check up on us, found me crying on the floor and I told everything......"

" Don't worry I won't tell, unless you tell me I can, but I think you need to get help, this is something serious, that guy cant be walking the streets, imagine how many other people he put in this situation "

" he got arrested, just a few days later after it happened, .... he got caught with drugs "

" You know, even after what you have told me, I still love you, I love you even more, because you are still here fighting "

" I did try to kill myself, but THAT was  just for attention "

"I Love you Daya"
" I love you too, but im still hurt, can you give me sometime to think about it? Maybe a week? Or two?I mean I don't want to lose you. And whatever happens I want to continue being  friends you know?"
" I will wait for you for as long as you want "
I smile and leave home. When i get there I am smiling like an idiot, I go to the kitchen, to get A glass of water, and my mom is there " why the smile?" " the day was pretty fun" " oh ok...." I go to my room and change into my pink  shorts and top and attempt to go to sleep, but I cant, I am thinking about Luis, I guess I do really love him I guess I will give him a chance .