*Emma Choi's POV*
I looked down at my phone and sighed, before I called my boyfriend and held it up to my ear. My boyfriend, Cha Hakyeon, and I haven't had the best relationship now, but I'm willing to let all that pass if he could hear me out. I could tell him the fact that he's the only one for me, the one I love with all my heart, the one I'm willing to give my everything to. The one I love.
Only if I was brave enough to talk.
"Yeoboseyo?" He asked and I sighed. Time to do this.
"It's E-Emma.." I stammered and heard his own sigh.
"Emma, stop calling me..." He said and I felt my heart break into several pieces in my chest. "I think it's time to let this die." He said and I gasped. How can he say that? I love him so much.
"Hear me out, Hakyeon! Please!" I said softly and he sighed again, "I love you so much, Hakyeon. Please don't be so selfish and listen to my feelings too." I said and bit my underlip as tears dwelled up in my eyes.
"Emma-ah, we can't be together." He said softly and tears began to roll down my cheeks.
"Hakyeon," I croaked out, "Please, o-one more time. Only one more time, I'll l-let you go then." I said and my voice was laced with the fact that I cried.
"Emma, I would only keep hurting you." He said and I sobbed silently, "I'm not being selfish, it's for you I'm doing this."
"Why would you hurt me?" I asked and my voice sounded like I was crying, which I was. A long silence appeared and I wrapped my left arm around my knees as I sat on my bed, crying. I looked down at my knees and sobbed silently.
"I'm not the same as I was, Emma." He said and I almost dropped my phone, "I don't love you anymore." He said and now I dropped my phone on my bed.
"Emma," I heard his call, "Emma-ah, listen to me now!" He yelled and I looked away from my phone. I laid down on my bed and cried so loudly and hysterically, I was ignoring his calls and just decided to be a bitch. When I'd almost cried done, I held up the phone to my ear.
"Hakyeon, I don't want this to die." I whimpered into my phone after crying and heard a loud sigh after this.
"Emma! Listen to me now!" He barked and I jumped into the air, "Why won't you stop being so selfish and stop torturing me!" He yelled and I whimpered.
"If that's how you see this, I'll stop being selfish. But you should know that I've always loved you, Hakyeon. I've always been here for you and I'll tell you a fact about me. The fact that you're the only one for me, the one I love with all my heart, the one I'm willing to give my everything to. The one I love." I said and whimpered slightly.
Suddently the phone began beeping, signalising that he ended our call. I got up from my bed and sighed as I ran a hand thought my slightly sweaty bangs. I walked to the kitchen and began making coffee.
A sudden knock on the door caught me of guard and I wobbled up to the door, before I opened it. I didn't expect Hakyeon to be standing there, which he did. I was caught so of guard that my gapping face couldn't be hidden.
"Emma-ah," Hakyeon said softly and grabbed my shoulders in a tight grip. "Listen to me now," He said and I nodded as tears filled my eyes.
"What is it, Hakyeon-oppa?" I asked and he turned away from me. "Please, answer me."
"Emma, I cannot do this anymore." He said and shook my shoulders, "I cannot!" He yelled and I pushed his hands away as tears began to roll down my cheeks.
"Hakyeon please!" I said and he growled slighty in anger.
"No! I won't please you anymore!" He yelled and slapped me. He slapped me.
I hugged my knees and cried harder. The memory haunted me, the sound of him barking at me, the look with no love anymore, the sound of the slap. I got up from my spot at my bed and looked at my arm, then my mirror. The light brown haired girl that stared back at me, her red-rimmed sharp eyes, her blonde stripes, her bronze skin, she was beautiful.
"Is this girl me?" I asked and my voice was hoarse. The mirror gave me no answer and I sighed. "I guess it," I whispered and looked down on what I had in my hands.
"I shouldn't." I said and dropped the razor-blade. "I shouldn't, physical pain is physical and mental pain is mental. I shouldn't mix those."
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First chapter of Let This Die. It's Sojin from Girl's Day playing Emma Choi and gosh~ their newest song is so pretty~ Something~ *bounce up and down*
Anyways, thanks for reading and I hope you enjoyed it~ ^v^
~ForeverHongbins~
