Camren : The truth behind the scenes

Camila

She judges herself.

" I always mess up everything" She yelled crying, falling apart on Dinah's arms. "I'm an idiot" She sobbed while falling to the floor with her best friend by her side.

She is sad.

"Nothing is wrong" She said softly. "I am okay" She smiled sadly, large dark circles under her eyes, her hair all tangled up and her journal in her arms.

She is hurt.

"It doesn't matter Normani" She said staring at the picture that was all over her social media causing drama, that picture of her girlfriend kissing another girl. "It's nothing." She said with tears in her eyes, she stayed silent, knowing that if she said something she would fall apart.

She is ignored.

"Girls, can we cancel the presentation, I don't feel good." She said staring at her managers and bandmates, they looked at her for a while then back at their manager, they grimaced and continued getting ready. "Okay" She sighed.

She is a disaster.

"Sorry." She said lowering her eyes to the picture she was holding of all five of them. "It was not my intention girls." She lifted her sight, Ally just frowned as she picked up the small pieces of broken glass. She stayed silent as she fought her mind, she was an idiot.

She is dying.

"Everything will be okay." she balanced herself back and forth, breathing slowly with her head in between her legs. Her anxiety was getting worse. All the drama and the managers are not doing her any good. "Breath." She cried a little, she leaned her head on the wall and closed her eyes.

She is confused.

"Am I happy here?" She asked herself as she stared in the mirror. "Do I love her?" She said staring at her face. She was confused, she was doubting her happiness. She was tired of being manipulated. That bandmate was making her suffer, it was better to stay away.

She screams in silence.

She pleadingly looked at the reporter but he continued with his questions. She wanted to walk out of that interview, she was uncomfortable. She looked at her bandmates but they just smiled in front of the cameras. She sighed heavily and smiled falsely. She didn't want that man to yell at her again.

She is not okay but she continues to smile.

She stared at the fans and smiled. Her nights had turned cold and lonely. She couldn't sleep, you could tell by the dark circles under her eyes, trails of tears that were left behind. She smiled. She just smiled although in the inside she was ruined.

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She did the same thing as always and locked herself in her room. She grabbed her cellphone and played her favorite song. She sang as tears streamed down her face. She grabbed her pillow, placed her face in it and yelled in silence.

" Stop crying you will get over it like you always do"

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She is going to say she is happy and show off that smile. But look closely into her eyes. Lauren, you destroyed her.

* I don't want to suffer anymore, I'm leaving *

-Anonima L. O