It all started with the teasing ang fighting just because of our own crushes. Jaycee (that jerk) always makes fun of me because of my crush, Drew. And so, I fight back and tease him with Daniella (I guess.. his crush).
All of a sudden, my feelings change.. I can’t explain it… Ughh.. I don’t know but.. am I falling to that jerk??
Honestly, I don’t know what to say to that jerk.. because everytime he’ll speak, my heart melts.. I don’t want to risk our friendship for this stupid feelings that will never work..
Maybe I’m right.. ‘Cause I keep that secret, look at us now, complimenting and arguing on childish issues.. He doesn’t notice how much joy he is throwing to me everyday though he still tease me with my crushes and the worst.. making fun with my idols.
But the hardest thing to accept is when he began admiring about his crush while me … with my heart wanting to shout about what I truly feel and pretend to be fine though it feels like…. I’m all empty.. no moving on.. I can’t tell whether I’ll stop or continue what I had started.
Time passed by.. yet the fear of losing him is still here.. locked deep inside my soul.. I can’t fight this feeling anymore.. It is so disturbing how I kept myself fine while seeing them together..
If I could just slap his face and tell him.. “Hey Jerk!! Are you nuts?? Can’t you see, I like you!!” Wow.. if God could just spare me some braveness so I could do that but still I am here pretending , fooling and envying that girl he wants to be with.. How unfortunate I am..
It’s like he doesn’t hear a word I say. No matter how much I show and tell him that he is important to me.. still.. he thinks that I’m just kidding.. Ridiculous.. That’s how I look for him though I tried to be serious.. Still, when I see him, I can’t help to smile..
It was a windy afternoon, and during this time, me and Jaycee are just exploring the whole campus-just me and him. It feels like my whole world had stop. But then, the silence was broken by a man who feels uncontented.
It was Drew. My body had froze as he tells me that he likes me.. As I look back, I saw Jaycee, his face that I can’t describe.. whether he looks happy for me or sad and I don’t know why..
Suddenly, I can’t hear the beat of my heart .. when Jaycee walked away while waving goodbye for me.. He left me thinking that I already got what I want. If he only knows the truth..
Today, I’m ready to face him.. Though I can’t see the outcome still, I want to try.. try to tell him .. that.. he’s the one who owns my heart..
I was already close to him.. but when I was to approach him, I saw him with Daniella , laughing loudly.. It seems that they are very happy.. They did not even notice me..
My tears ran up through my cheeks as I ran to the music room.. I drowned myself to music while playing the guitar saying, “ He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar..
Suddenly, a man wiped those tears. Suprisingly, it was Jaycee, that Jerk. He ask me why am I crying, and so.. I stare blankly at him. He started telling me that he will kill the guy who made me cry..
If I could just spank him and tell him, could he kill himself for making me like this?? He started speaking about his ‘Daniella’ and I laughed sarcastically, grinning my teeth and a tear fell down to his hands.
He began comforting me , “Hey, what’s the problem? Did I say something wrong?” I laughed and laughed .. while him staring at me, looking so much worried..
It was a minute of silence when he held his hands and put my head into his shoulders.. It was so warm and comforting. He began singing while tapping my back, as if I’m just a kid.. It was really relieving..
I felt asleep into his arms.. So gentle, so caring.. As I sleep, I dreamed peacefully.. it’s like he’s my Dad. And when I woke up, he squished my cheeks as he told me not to cry again.. I smell hope from that moment..
Though I know Daniella was waiting for him outside, still I am happy for that time when he was MINE..
I led him outside and gave his hands to Daniella. But this time, I will make things right. I told Daniella that she is lucky to have Jaycee . I realized I must set them free.
I gave both of them smile and waved goodbye. I walked away from them smiling yet a tear crossed against my cheeks. I can’t no longer stop my watery eyes so I run as fast as I could..
Then, I slipped and stumbled .. I saw Jaycee’s caring hands to raise me up.. But .. unfortunately, it was just my imaginations.. I stood up alone while the rain poured my teary eyes .. Since then, I began living alone.. It’s like a fairy tale without a happy ending.
The time came that kwe moved away from that place because of Dad’s work. I thought it is a good chance to forget him.. Everyday, I feel remorseful on keeping this feleing inside of me, . ohh. . even for the last time with him,, I was not able to tell him that I’m leaving for common good..
Years had passed, I’ve been through a lot of relationships, but no one of them makes me feel what I felt with Jaycee before. . so, I don’t take them seriously.. I can call myself ‘play girl’ then..
Again, a surprise changed my life.. Guess what? I’m invited to our reunion and that jerk planned that get together..
So the reunion day had come, I saw everyone except that jerk.. I was really enthusiastic for him not being there until a man wearing formal suite who looks very handsome..!
Whoa!! I was then again charmed with those familiar smiles!! It was that jerk! He whispered his name to my ear. . My frozen heart for almost years, melted again.. It was so humiliating because I was stuck on that moment infront of the crowd.
Jaycee began talking and talking.. like a fool.. After an hour of that ridiculous speaking.. he told me something that made me.. Uhmm.. what do you call that? I forget the term but. He paused for a while and whispered “ I missed you..”
I can’t breathe!! But then, our moment was interrupted by an elegant lady with a partner. It was Daniella , with Drew.. and the surprise was.. they were married!! I can’t help thinking how this things happen.. Are they playing pranks on me?
I left that noisy party and ran outside recklessly.. Again, being clumsy, I slipped and I saw the imagination of Jaycee’s hands.. But.. luckily this time, it was real!! Jaycee lifted me with his hands that never change..
He pressed my nose as he told me , “Hey, don’t you know how long I’ve been waiting for this moment?? Until now you are stupid.. You’re numb .. Why don’t you notice that I loved you from the beginning…
… Actually, it’s my fault.. I wasn’t brave enough to tell you this before but now... I will never let you go.. I won’t.. .”
I was very shocked., It seems that we’re floating in the air.. He’s like an angel sent from above –and took me to heaven.. After that moment, I can’t tell a word.. so.. I let action to speak louder rather than voice..
I just wish that moment will never stop.. For the last time, he whispered “I wanna grow old with you..” , I don’t know how but I replied him back automatically, “Well, I can’t live without you..”
With those minutes, I feel gladness to my heart .. From that, my emptied heart before is now full of hopes and love from the special someone of my own whom I’ve loved before.. and will be loved now..and till the end of my lifetime..
~END~
This story is just an imagination that the writer wishes to happen though there’s only a least possibility..
Written by:Jedys Alagon and Winnie dela Cruz
(nung 2010 pa po ito eh)
try reading this habang nakikinig nung kantang 'kiss the rain piano version'
or etong video sa ----->eto yung totoong mga kanta nito eh
