A Day in The Life of...Whatever I Am

2/21/17

Well for one thing today I accidentally left my house keys at home this morning so I have to sit out here in the cold till 6:30 (another hour and a half!) And I feel dumb for doing that but that's not really the point of this chapter. I don't want to confront anyone directly about this so I decided to ramble about it here. After I post this I'm probably not gonna be on social media 'n stuff for a little while so don't get upset if it takes me a while to respond to you or something.

I finally did it. I told the girl I like how I feel. I'm really proud of myself but at the same time I feel really sad, and I'm not sure why. Something seems to be upsetting me about it.
Earlier today when I told her I got a little nauseous oddly enough, and I had to stop and sit down in the hallway for a minute. I got to my next class and my hands were shaky and whatnot. I was obviously overreacting a ton, but I didn't really care then. We had a fire drill and I was still really shaky. I was pretty much literally bouncing off the walls for a few minutes, sans the walls.
One of my friends helped me calm down, which helped for the rest of class. I still felt like a mess in my head though. I have no idea how or why I felt like that. I've never felt that strongly about something before. It was like being someone else for an hour and a half.

My walk home kinda turned things around for me though. I felt almost completely the opposite. I suddenly felt really sad as I walked out, and couldn't explain it. I'm starting to feel better now, so it's alright. I'm more concerned with not freezing to death.
None of this is a bad thing to me though. I'm not sure how to put it in words, but it all feels right. Like it was supposed to happen the way it did.
Idk, hopefully I figure it out soon. I don't like being this confused.