Thy Evil Side

To be unwanted in two places at once?

Hahahaha....I pity you child. What have you done to yourself?

Hmm....questioning yourself again it seems.

You're remembering again the what if's. What if you hadn't said those things? Then you'd still have your friends, your bestfriend. You could've been with them today, hanged-out with them and just have that simple everyday life of being around them. Of not being afraid to ask, of just being yourself with them and not feel so limited in your actions and words. But no, you just had to say those things. Such a pity sight you are, you had everything child, a happy family, good friends and a simple lifestyle but now...you have nothing!

You miss those moments with your bestfriend. Today you could've gone home togther with your bestfriend but since you're pitiful fault you couldn't hang-out or even more go home together with her. More importantly she wasn't even there. And this morning you didn't know where she was but you used to always know her whereabouts but now even if you worry for her you wouldn't know and you wouldn't dare ask. Because, honestly, do you still have such right to ask? You're just a classmate now.

And since your bestfriend wasn't around you had to go with the two. But seeing them, you felt envious. Seeing the way they were so close and open to each other, you just couldn't bear the sight. It is the biggest what if you ask yourself. "What if I didn't grow close to them?" and also your biggest envy, the biggest envy you ever felt, you felt so envious you wanted to cry. But you couldn't 'cause then you'd just ruin their friendship moments and be the center of attraction once more...

But I don't mean to be...

Maybe so, but it'll make you look like it.

I didn't mean to.

And so you hold it in. Not wanting them to see your tears and make them hear the same story all over again. They may say that they'll listen and be there but let' be realistic here, they're happy now and you'll jut be a burden to their happiness with your stupid, pitiful problem.

I know. That's why I'm distancing myself from them.

HAHAHAHA!!! You truly are a pitiful sight to see, child. But as you distance yourself, every step seems to hurt you. Actually, now that 'we' have mentioned it, it's like you sacrificed everything for them both to be happy.

Sacrifice is a big word,

But no matter where you look at it, that's how it looks, hmmm?

Well, if that is the case. I cheerfully acdept all the pain for the sake of their happiness.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! You never fail to make me laugh child. Very well if that is what you wish, accept the pain, drown yourself in pain.

For their sake I will, I always wanted to help them be more happy and see the better side of life.

And now they have.

But still you question yourself once more, what if?.....

What if what? You didn't say those things? You didn't make such a decision? You didn't grow close to them? You didn't make that stupid mistake of thinking.....that they would be the kind of friends to be there for you but really now they're just....your mushroom friends. Hahaha, you chose mushrooms over your beautiful radiant flowers. Oh child, dear fragile little child.

STOP. Please...

You keep on wishing you never said those words but nothing can be done now, even if you say you've moved on that doesn't mean the past won't be coming to get you. No matter how fast or far you run it will always and I mean always haunt you.

NO. Just.....STOOOP!!!!

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Hey, this is my first time making one so I just made it short just to try things out and see if you guys would like it.