People started arriving in pairs, and I’ll admit I was nervous. Gabby and I never ran the same circles, exactly. Although at this point, I was buzzed enough, that I didn’t mind all the attention I was receiving. I just went out to have a good time; flirt, laugh, and watch Breaking Dawn, but then, I saw him, and all the life was immediately knocked out of me.
“Hey,” he smiled, “I was hoping to see you, beautiful.” I’m Beautiful? He thought I was beautiful? I looked like a downright whore.
“Is that so?” I calmly shot back, even though, internally, I was still freaking out that he thought I was beautiful.
“Yeah, Gabby told me about what happen, and—“
“I’m gonna shoot her,” I blurted. He smiled, and handed me a ticket.
“It’s a small town, darling, get used to it.”
Although I was slightly angry at Gabby for putting me on blast like that, I was also enthralled by Jordon. I smiled, and took his hand, and lead him outside. I loaded a bowl in his pipe, and we smoked together.
“I don’t want you to think I’m creepy, but I just wanted you to know I’m here for you, in the same way you were there for me.”
He made me blush. “Oh…” I started, “Well, thank you?” I was such an awkward dork.
He dismissed what I had said, and exhaled into my mouth.
“I’ve always loved you,” He whispered into my neck, and trail-kissed to my mouth. He had me pinned against the wall. “Let’s go,” He begged, and pulled himself close to me. I could feel him—all of him, and I loved it. I nodded, and his hand in mine, he led me through the park. We were like two kids.
Finally we walked so far, that we reached the old abandoned record factory, where together we lied under the stars, close enough to hear the other’s heartbeat. He kissed my cheek and broke the silence.
“You deserve so much better.” Jordon believed, “Better than me, better than Caleb…” I rolled my eyes at the thought. No, it’s more like you deserve better, my mind interrupted.
“Jordon—please stop.” I murmured. “I hate it when you do this, I’m not beautiful, or strong, I’m a junkie. I absolutely loath it when you say those things. I am the way I am because I’m weak; I’m worthless. Fact is; you deserve better, sweetheart. I mean, I came here today half soused, looking for a one-night stand. If that doesn’t say weak, I don’t know what does. Oh, by the way, I’m sure Gabby didn’t tell you the reason we broke up; I cheated.”
“Sarah…” Jordon started. He hovered on top of me. “It’s not about the past. It’s about now.” The way he bit his lip drove me crazy, and I forgot everything I had said. He kissed me, and I felt his hands run up both sides of my body. I couldn’t believe what I was doing, but I didn’t want it to stop.
