Our Little Roller Coaster

Hey Claire?

** A. N.
Hey guys. Dorks here. Hope you've liked this. Oh well. Let's read! **

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"Ugh". I smash my hand down on my alarm clock and it finally shuts off. I lay in bed looking at the ceiling. I think about taking a shower. So I get up and I grab some underwear, a bra, my favorite baby blue crop top, some high waist light blue jeans with a hole in the knee and my butterfly towel and go across the hall to the bathroom. Setting my clothes on the closed toilet lid , I run some hot water. As I'm doing this I see myself in the mirror. "Ew. What the fuck is that? " I frown at myself. I roll my eyes and get undressed. I look at my scars and stretch marks all over. My paleness. My acne... Ugh. I'm disgusting. I get in the shower washing everything I need to and then just stand there letting the hot water hit my body.

I imagine me freezing time and just crying. I would get to do anything, but I would choose to cry. Maybe in a park. Or a gas station. Or my tree house in the woods where I used to live. It was amazing. It had a pond by it surrounded by weeping willow trees. I had brought out tea lights in Mason jars in the summer. The peacefulness just soothed me. Until a couple drunk kids had to ruin it. I was really nice to them though. I need to stop being so nice. I shake my head.

"Wake me up when September ends... " my phone starts ringing, bringing me out of my thoughts. I get out, turn off the shower, and wrap the towel around me. I pick up and put it on speaker. "Hey!  Guess what!? " I roll my eyes at Claire's cheerfulness. She doesn't let me answer. "We have a new student!  He's supposed to be really haaaawt!  Or whatever bitchface said... " she laughs kind of soft but continues " his name is Christian Knight. Isn't that ironic? " I laugh at her trying to be preppy. She hangs up on me. I laugh and shrug.

I put on my clothes and I receive a text.

Clairrre: why'd u laugh??

Me: why not?  It's funny asffff

Clairrre: Fuck.  You. Bitch.

Me: maybe later.

Clairrre: you wish...

I laugh and walk back to my room. I turn on some music as I do my hair in a messy bun. I look at myself and roll my eyes again. "I don't know why I try" I whisper. I look over at my makeup but I  shake my head.  I grab my black hoodie with a kiss on it,  my bookbag, the sketch book that weighs like 10 pounds and my car keys. I'm about to leave but then I notice that I don't have shoes on. I get some no-show socks and my white-out vans.

I practice smiling on my way down the stairs. But before I could reach the hallway leading to the door, I see my step-dad. He is sitting on the laz-e-boy  and he just looks at me. He smiles and waves me goodbye. I pick up my pace to the door and I hear him mutter 'something something something skank? Something something '. I shrug and leave the house.

***

"DONT STOP BELIEVING!!! " me, Alyssa and Claire scream, overpowering the radio.

I picked them up and as soon as I did, this song came on.

We turn right on shrewt drive to take the shortcut to school.
In about a minute we are in the parking lot and I see all of the  boring, familiar faces just like every day. We get out of the car and I smile when Alyssa sees Tyler, the guy she's with,  and she asks "hey. Uh... Can um.. Leave? " I shrug and..Claire spits out " why do we fucking care? It's just another boy that yo-" I cut her off by asking who the new kid is. She smiles and starts explaining. Alyssa gets the hint to leave and she jogs up to her boyfriend.  I look back at Claire and I see her mouth open and gazing at something behind me. She immediately looks the other way and blushes. I raise my eyebrows and she rolls her eyes. "It's Aiden... " she whispers. I shrug. He is the hardcore party planner. Anything you want, anything, he has it. He is pretty cool but he mostly keeps his distance from people unless necessary. Claire has been trying to get with him for the entire school year. its kind of sad to see how much she doesn't try, but she complains about him not texting back. 

He sees her and waves a little before turning to his friend again. She smiles and walks away. And I'm still sitting here like a potato. So I start walking to the school building, and  I see, I think, the new kid. He looks at me for a quick second but darts his eyes elsewhere when I smile. 

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 its 4th period and the seniors have an assembly about graduation. as the principal drones on and on about careers, even though almost all of us have jobs, i am texting Claire.

Clairrre: ugh.. I can't stand it. Aiden keeps looking at me and it's so awkkkkk

Me: you're such a drama queen. Fucking talk to him!!!

Clairrre: but...

Me: if you don't ...I will

Clairrre:...fine. But after this thing. Okay?

Me: yup.

We stop texting and I kind of pay attention to Mr. Jones .  I hear a laugh stiffle a couple rows away , when he accidentally slips the f-bomb.  Shaking my head and giggling slightly at his red face, I feel eyes on me. I look around and see nothing. Quite a few seats beside me, I rest my eyes on this boys eyes. It's Christian again. I smile at him but his face stays the same. A though I'm kinda far, I can see a light blush across his cheeks. He sheepishly smiles back, showing the tiniest smile wrinkles. But it ends fast. He looks down at something and frowns. I look away since I feel like a stalker.

The assembly was finally dismissed and I start to head downstairs to my lunch. A person was coming up and I wasn't paying attention. I bumped into him or her and I tripped down the last four stairs. I wince because my butt made contact first. "  I think I broke my ass" I say, under my breath. I hear a deep chuckle and footsteps coming to me. I take the hand that is held out to pick me up, but I refuse to look at him.  "Sorry I made you break it" he says smoothly. I laugh and I can feel my neck  and cheeks warm up.

I force myself to look at him and it's Christian.

**sorry for the cliff hanger. But this was getting kinda long
Love you,my little shooting stars

2-27-17

~Alex~**