Love Bites

Chapter 2

Tomorrow Winona will be meeting my mom. I don't quite understand why it's such a big deal to me, I only met her yesterday. I only kissed her yesterday. My first gay kiss, scratch that my first kiss in general. Those were the thoughts running through my head as I held my head under the warm water. I was still tired because of my lack of sleep. I yawn loudly as I stepped out of the shower. Half-asleep I managed to put on my whole uniform, not missing a button on the dress shirt. I didn't really have body issues, I was content with my rolls, but today I just felt awful about each section of fat. I rubbed my eyes and made my way to the kitchen. I didn't feel like cooking then so I just made some toaster waffles for Mica and some pop tarts for Ashlynn. I made myself some coffee and English muffin. I just needed to stay awake. Sipping on the freshly brewed beverage, I seemed to forget to wake up Mica because Ashlynn came up too me in her pajamas and yawned.

"Nice pop tarts, where's Mica," she sat at the counter and began to chew on the toaster pastry. I mumble "oh fuck" as I placed my cup down next to my muffin and ran up to his room.
"Mica baby it's time to wake up, sorry I almost forgot." I shook his body, waking him up. He sat up and hugged me.
"I don't feel well," he admitted. I placed my hand on his forehead, feeling it was warm. I pulled on my phone and texted mom asking about it. She quickly replied with I'll come home to watch him but send him to the sitter anyway.
"Okay, mom said you can stay, but you need to eat. Come on." I shrugged pulling him out of bed. Once we were downstairs I quickly ate my muffin and did my makeup, well put on a lipstick. It was a deep purple, close to black. I chose this color because it gets everywhere and is noticeable, just in case Winona tries to kiss me again. I still wasn't sure if I liked girls, so I'd rather not risk it.

We left the house earlier than the day before, I rushed Mica across the street and explain the situation to the sitter, and she was alright with him staying for a bit. I had brought a thermos full of coffee with me so I would stay awake. Ashlynn didn't talk to me at all on the walk to the stop, she finally spoke up as we sat down on the bench at the stop.
"Who were you hanging out with last night," she questioned playing some game on her phone, I bit the inside of my cheek debating telling her about the kiss, finally deciding not to.
"Winona needed my help with an assignment, she knows I'm smart that's why," I lied. Why couldn't I tell her that we were hanging out? I didn't have many friends maybe one or two, so I thought she wouldn't believe me when I said I had friends. She sighed and put her phone away, myself staring at the ground lost in thought.
"The bus is here," she grabbed my arm and pulled me up, "God you're heavy." I stumbled to my feet and got into our usual seats. I put in my earbuds and drowned out the loud morning bus ride until our final stop, I didn't make eye contact with Winona, hoping she didn't get the wrong idea. My phone buzzed in my lap, startling me. It was Winona texting me from the back of the bus, I get you're confused but avoiding eye contact wow. The closest thing I told her to being confused about liking girl was saying I might be gay, maybe she was just really good at reading people.

I started a conversation with Winona as we were walking the block to the school. Standing side by side our hands touched every now and then, my chest started to hurt every time our hands bumped into each other, eventually, she grabbed my hand and intertwined our fingers.
"You are the most nervous person I've ever met," she mocked me and I pulled my hand away. I wasn't nervous; I just didn't know what to do. She looked confused and slightly offended.
"Listen, I would love to hold your hand Winona, but I just don't know if I like girls," her face softened losing the confused and angered expression, "plus the kids at our school, they already make fun of me for being bigger, what would they do to me if they found out that I kiss girls?" I got pretty worked up about this, having to hold back tears after my sentence. She pulled me into a hug and whispered into my ear.
"I get it but you'll be fine, I'll protect you." I let go of the hug and looked her in the eyes, they were a lighter red now, before they were a maroon color. I looked around for any students before leaning in and placing a soft peck on her lips, mouthing "thank you"afterward. I held her hand as we walked to the front gates, letting go and heading our separate ways after walking in the gates.