When you're about to give up

When you're about to give up...

Kurt is 19 years old and longs for his soulmate. At the age of 16 your
body and mind are ready to find your other half. Meaning: you find
your soulmate when you share the first kiss. You will instantly know
because every other kiss just feels wrong.

The concept is frowned upon by most. You have to kiss a lot of people to
find him or her. Most teenagers at 16 don't really mind that much in
the beginning but the older they get, the more desperate and helpless
they feel when they haven't found them yet. Many people just give up
at some point and chose a person they have much in common with, even
if everything beyond platonic just feels wrong or unsatisfying. These
people just settle and most of the times their relationships don't
work out in the end. Others just stay alone and resign but most of
them just try to find their other half by kissing as many people as
possible.

There are the rare couples who find each other right in the beginning. Kurt
is jealous. Tina and Mike, Mercedes and Sam and Santana and Brittany
are lucky to have found each other right at the age of 16.

Kurt knew he was gay way before he turned of age. When he hit age he acted on instinct. In the beginning, his advances were not reciprocated and
when his friends found their match all around him he acted foolish.
At some parties he threw himself at Finn or Puck to press a kiss on
their mouths just to discover they weren't who he was longing for.

He unwillingly got kissed by Karofsky the same year and swore to himself
that he would never again kiss someone without their consent. He was
happy that Karofsky wasn't the one for him.

The possibilities at McKinley weren't that great but Kurt found out that
there were quite some closeted gay guys who approached him over time.
New students, football players and even teachers made him advances.
He tried and failed. Of course Kurt knew that he was still young and
many people just didn't find their soulmate but he was insistent and
held his head high.

Rachel was a bit different though. She was depressed and cried every other
day into his shirt. Kurt knew how she felt, but he didn't want to let
himself fall apart so he tried to be strong for the both of them.
What started as 'I can't stand you, because we are so similar' became
more of a 'we're in the same boat, let's hold onto each other'
friendship between Kurt and Rachel. They got through high school and
were going to New York to share an apartment.

When your soulmate dies, you get the chance to find a new one. Not quite
as perfect as your original match, but definitely a lot more than a
no-match. That's how Burt and Carole found each other. First it was
awkward for Kurt and Finn regarding their history but they grew
together like brothers over time and loved each other from the bottom
of their hearts.

Burt and Carole saw Kurt's struggles to find his soulmate but there was
nothing they could do. Their hearts ached for their son and stepson.
Finn wasn't really looking and much more relaxed with the whole
thing.

When it was time for Kurt to say goodbye to his family, Burt hugged him
tightly and told him to not give up on love and that he would find
his counter piece when it was meant to be. Kurt cried at his words
and promised his dad to be patient.

Kurt was 18, his life in New York was wonderful and he settled in
perfectly with Rachel and at Parsons. He had a couple of dates but
every guy turned out to be wrong for him. Again.

One night he decided to get drunk and went to a gay club. He ordered a
fancy cocktail and sat down at the bar. It didn't even take a few
minutes before guys approached him and he danced with some of them.
The dancing involved some groping and he decided that he needed more
alcohol to be ready for anything like that. After his 4th cocktail he
was in the middle of the dance floor, was touched and kissed dirtily
by some guys. Of course it felt wrong but he didn't care at this
point. His body ached for someone or something and his brain was
fuzzy so the last guy he danced with took him home.