The Lone Nerd

Chapter 1 - Some Info

A/N - Some of this chapter is in the description but don't skip it, there are some other crucial parts not in the description.

'Falling in love' shares a striking resemblance to the term, 'falling out' and although it will most likely be a coincidence that they are so similarly worded, I found myself submitting more, and more to the conclusion that they could, in fact, be linked. After beholding the 'greatness' of 'falling in love' I avoided it altogether, finding that the wreckage it left behind and the 'falling out' s it seemed to cause was a more logical solution.

And so, as a 16 year old girl, going into my last year of high school I covered my school image in school work and loneliness which proved to achieve just that, loneliness. I was undesirable, even as a friend, I limited myself to a strictly, business-like relationship with my peers, who most of which, I considered obscenely infuriating.

I covered my worries, my woes, my fears, my doubts, in schoolwork and studying, convincing the world I had a clue, when, in reality I was trying to convince myself, not them. Thus, sustaining my loneliness and image.

I never really had craved social attention, it was just not my norm to seek approval or praise, I was used to the regular "teacher's pet" insults and it never really bothered me. after my arrival at that school I had no friends. I didn't even take the time to remember people's names seen as it wasn't like I was going to ever need them anyway. I neglected speaking for the most part so other than to talk to my mum or when necessary, I didn't talk to anyone. I wasn't mute just people rarely spoke to me and vice versa.

Evidently, my life was was a tediously repetitive cycle of school, work, school. The only human thing in my life was my relationship with my mum, she was my everything, my family, my best friend, my idol, she provided everything I needed and I was only ever truly myself with her. I transformed into a regular teen with her and we would chat for hours on end talking about everything and nothing. She and my home were the only things I could find comfort in.