thoughts of the brokenhearted

lies

i know i told you i never really loved you

that was a lie

i know i told you i was over you

that was a lie

the truth is i miss you so much it physically hurts and it's like i'm drowning and all people can do is tell me to swim but i don't know how to swim without you because you were my little floaties holding me up

and you're talking about wanting to go on dates like i never meant a thing to you and i'm telling you about this guy and i just want you to ask me not to go for him because you want me

i want to tell you that i'm madly in love with you still and that i can't date this other guy because i still love you but what good would that do it'd just make me sad and you feel bad and i feel so

incredibly

hopeless.