{This is gonna be about me so y'all know who I am as a person}
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My name is Dezyrai but you can can call me dez. Im a female with shite brown eyes and red hair and pale skin. I'm into like 3 things women lmao (I'm bi but I prefer girls), video games, and my favorite tv show right now is Steven Universe. I was born in Warburg Germany, December 16th 2000, but my actual birthday is the 15th in America because Germany is 6 hours ahead of us. Pretty cool right lmao, no but seriously after my 1st birthday we went to America. Oh I almost forgot to tell you why my family was in Germany... It was because my dad was in the army and the really cool fact is my dad's mom (my gram) and my dad were born in Germany and I was to. Around my 2nd birthday my mom's parents died of course everyone was sad but I wasn't cause I was 2 and I had no idea what death was. Over the next couple years there were more deaths (balala), but none of them hit me in the feels. Besides the most recent one that one had me crying until I couldn't physically produce tears anymore. The death was of my best friend Micheal his death was November 7th 2016, yes Election Day the day Trump won I still remember that day like it was yesterday... And no he didn't kill him self because Trump won. He did it because he was being bullied. Plus I can understand why he had a hard life. But going off of all that when he did it I felt hurt that he didn't tell me about the bully. I could have punched the pecker even though I don't like to fight I'd do anything for him even do something I always refused to do. Cause I loved him not a ya 'know boyfriend-ish but as my baby brother my baby brother that was 5 months younger than me... But ever since I was young I had depression problems and he used to make me smile or laugh even when I was felling useless because of my depression... And now I feel alone but I know I have people who love me and I can't make them experience what I'm going through now plus when I'm in my depression state I get worked up then I start to hyperventilate once I'm done hyperventilating my head always hurts for 2-3 hours. But I have friends and family so I'm not alone but the bad part is that my friends don't 'hang out' with me besides one which he'll probably read this cause he follows me on here but I don't give 2 flying fucks cause he's my friend. Actually as I write this I'm having my so called depression shite but I'll be okay you don't need to worry.
But that's all I can write about because my life isn't over yet plus I basically told you everything you really needed to know for now I probably update when I feel like it probably in a couple years maybe idk but have fun with your life see ya...
