fellings for her

Chapter 24

                    Kyree
"Good Afternoon Shantel" I greeted as I walked tiredly off the elevator onto the 4th floor of the hospital. "Wassup Gigi" I greeted. She nodded her and "one hot cup of coffee with 3 teaspoons of sugar and 4 teaspoons on hazelnut creamer." "Thanks, you always keep me right." I thanked Gigi. "Well you have been coming to the hospital for the past 3 months and ordering the same coffee." I sighed. "I know." I took a sip of my coffee and sat it on the desk. "Your tired. I know you are." Gi stated. I sighed again. "I know, I just wish all of this was just a dream, I miss my girlfriend! And not seeing any movement from her for the past 3 months is really heart breaking." "I know how you feel, my little brother died at birth." She comforted. "You better go say your last goodbyes to her before Doc gets here, he's supposed to be at work in 25." She informed me. "This won't be easy saying goodbye to my supposed to be wife." "Those things are never easy, you've got this!" She commented. I nodded my head and walked to Kiyahs room.

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"Hey baby girl" I greeted Kiyah as I walked in the room and moved my chair next to her bed. "Today your being taken off life support, the hardest day of my life." I let a tear fall down my eye and it fell on her hand. I picked up her hand and kissed the tear away. "I never thought I'll have to say goodbye like this. But I guess all good die early... Shit hurts man" I scooted my chair back and got next to her on the bed, and cried myself to sleep. My last time sleeping with my baby!

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    It was now 8 olock at night. I decided on staying at a hotel for a month to get myself together. I had just got from the hospital, they pulled the plug on her. I tried to be strong for her mother but ever since they told us that something went wrong in the surgery I just didn't know myself anymore! I stayed strong for the 1st 10 minutes of the event and once I saw her mom cry, I just couldn't resist it. I cried in her shoulder! I just don't get it... Why God?

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I thought about all the good times that me and Kiyah had together as I stood in the steaming hot shower. I felt tears build up in my eyes and I just said fuck it and let them flow.

How was I supposed to smile when the only person who kept a smile on my face is now dead?

Seriously, I can already feel my heart growing cold.

After my shower, I sighed. Wrapped a towel around my body and walked out of the bathroom. I grabbed my suitcase and threw it across the bed, opened it and picked out a pair of boxers and gym shorts. Closed my suitcase back and rolled it to the other side of the room. I got dressed and laid on the bed. I'm sleeping with the lights on.

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About around 3 o'clock in the morning I was woken up by the strange change of the air conditioning. Getting up under the cover I was about to close my eyes when something called my name. At 1st I thought I was just hearing things when they called my name again, I got up and laid back on my elbows. I saw Jakiyah's ghost looking at me. I thought I was dreaming but I knew I wasn't. "Hey baby, I'm coming back to tell you to don't be afraid of love" the ghost softly spoke. "How am I supposed to move on when you taught me how to love? You showed me when love felt like. You taught me how to treat a lady." I asked. "Baby, everything happens for a reason, you just have to accept that and move on. Maybe I wasn't supposed to Marry you? What if I died for you to find your real wife?" She questioned.  "I was afraid I would hear those words, it just doesn't feel real. I don't care what you say. You'll always be my wife, girlfriend best friend and soul mate. Nobody can take that tittle from you" I let a tear fall from my eyes. "Shhh, don't cry. I'll always be in a better place" she shushed me. "Before you go, just promise me you'll always look down protect and love me?" I asked. "I promise." She confirmed. She blew me a kiss and disappeared. I layed back down and went to sleep. But not before I mumbled "in the next couple days they'll lay my baby to rest!"

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"Good morning Mr Matthews" the bell hopper greeted. I threw my head back in a "Was sup" motion and kept walking out of the hotel. Once I reached my car I unlocked it, hopped in started the car and put on my seatbelt. "Rivals by Usher" Kiyah favorite song played through the speakers and I backed out of my parking spot. Exiting the parking lot and pulling up at a red light. A black 2008 Honda pulled up next to me, it was a girl in it. I glanced at her and she winked at me. I shook my head and the light turned green. Saved by the bell I kept straight and turned left into McDonald's. I'm in need of a quick little breakfast. I ordered my food, paid and left the McDonald's. Once back on the road I kept straight . I could now admit. I had no designated destination. I just wanted to ride. Ride the pain away. Just to get away from everything. Life, my flaws, my mistakes just everything. I wanted to go and get Kiyah a little something for her funeral. Her favorite makeup.

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Once I got back to the hotel it was around 10 10:30 and I had been out looking for the littlest things to make Kiyah's funeral beautiful. I took my shower and hopped in the bed. Just as last night, the ghost of Kiyah reappeared. "Why did you shake your head at the beautiful girl that winked at you today?" She asked. "Cause she's not you." She sigh. "Now I feel bad." "What do you mean I asked confused. "There's something that you don't know about me." She started. "Okay? ... Are you going to tell me?" I anxiously asked. "I've cheated throughout our whole relationship. With your cousin."

Just like that, I woke up in a puddle of sweat. All of this was just a dream!

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