You have to remeber Loki, my inner consicous battled me to remember. But the thing is, i dont know what it wants me to remember. its gotten bad, too bad, to the point where maybe jumping off of a cliff would fix it all. But it wont. why arn't i normal, like the other kids? a question i constantly aks my parents. i have fur, a tail even, yet they always respond, you are normal to us sweetie. Its like going through a dark tunnel while you're in the middle of a phone call, the call drops and your left with a feeling of intense anxiety, wondering what the person you were talking to thought. But i dont care what others think, but at the same time I do, crazy huh.
"LOKI DINNER!" a call from the kitchen breaks me out of my thoughts. im not hungry, i never am, and no im not anorexic but i just can't find a reason for food to pass my lips. walking downstairs i look around the corner to see my parent discussing a subject, not just any subject, they were discussing me, behind my back! "eehem" i clear my throat quietly , like a bat in baseball there heads snapped towards me. "oh, um hey loki, are you hungry tonight?" the question came out quiet apologetic, "no. im not, i just got fed up by you!" i scream the ending and run back upstairs. help. there it goes again that soft little voice in my head, yet it seems so real. help me loki. its never done that before? "what, whats wrong?" my words are only spoken to the air and walls around me. LOKI HELP. Tears started to stream my face as i hold my head in pain, WHAT IS HAPPENING?! it hurts , it hurts do bad, LOKI YOU PROMISED. the yelling in my head broke me down , my knees making me collapse. "HOW? HOW DO I HELP?! PLEASE" i scream sobbing, my hands over my ears as i lay on the floor curled up. ive gone crazy, ive gone mad, ive lost my sanity. loki its okay, your okay, its just me, mythol. my tears slowly stop, mythol? it sounds so...familiar. "mythol? who are you, what do you want?" remember loki, remember, i miss you, we all do. "who does? what do you want me to remember?! i dont understand!" everything, its time to come home loki,we miss you. im getting no where with mythol, i just want him to go away,"leave me alone, please" loki!. the voice faded away.
Mythol, remeber, home, three words, whats going on. my parents dont care, no one does. i need to find home, i know i dont belong here. but where is homr, where do i belong. should i try to contact mythol. no. its not real, he's not real. yes he is, i know he is, i know it. but i dont know it, i dont know anything anymore, absolutley nothing.
thoughts surround my head as i lay down to try to get some sleep. unsuccesful so far at the sleeping part, in case you couldnt tell. my pillow was fluffy, my blanket comfy,my mind sturring. why is this happening to me? we love you. i break my eyes open sitting up. "who said that? who are you?!" we want you to come home loki, we miss you. " where is home? please tell me, i want to come home" home is far, home is nothing like you've ever remembered seeing. "how do i get there?" just, go to sleep.
