Bad For You

Early change

I woke up today groggy, wallowing in my anger. I couldn't sleep a wink last night, not after the stress that insensitive ass put me through. I have enough trust issues with Josh as it is, but for Cole to poke at the wall I was trying to build, it just knocked it back down.

Of course Josh has his past, but I couldn't change that, and I most definitely shouldn't judge him. 

Last year, Josh went to the extreme to make me his girlfriend, he spent every second with me and spent all his weekends taking me out and proving to me he'd changed for three whole months. He stayed home, didn't go out to parties and avoided all girls when they approached him.

The reason for my insecurity now is that things have changed slightly and I cant deny it. Josh does go out partying more often now, and of course he's more sociable with girls. But I cant be psycho possessive over him, then we'd never work.

"You don't love him" Lilly's voice echoed in my head. That seems to be her reasoning. My reasoning is just that I'm a relaxed person, I guess. I don't know. I'm confused.

Thankfully, the weekend has arrived, I can relax, eat, and binge watch TV.  I roll out of bed and into the shower, where I will be singing some Mariah Carey. 

After showering I check my phone seeing as its exploding on the table,

Lilly: I STILL CANT BELIEVE YOU WENT TO COLE'S HOUSE.

I sigh and throw on my tiger onesie, why did I tell Lilly about yesterday? Lilly seems to be overly excited at the fact that not only did I go to his house, but at the fact he hates Josh. In fact excited is an understatement she's jumping with thrill.

SHUT UP X 

I text her back quickly and skip downstairs, I'm hungry.  I know I should be productive with my day but realistically thats just not going to happen.

When I reach my kitchen I almost have a heart attack. Sitting at the kitchen table is my mum, Faith and the devil himself.

Cole Larkin.

Before I could say anything, I could see his face twitching with amusement as if he was going to burst out laughing. I thought for a second it was because I had toothpaste still on my face, but then I realised, it was because I was dressed as a damn tiger.

I HATE LIFE. ALL I WANTED WAS BREAKFAST.

"You look adorable" Faith said coming up to me and hugging me, I just smiled bashfully and greeted her back.

"You'll never guess what!" My mum said bursting with joy.

"What?"

"WE'RE GOING TO FRANCE IN TWO DAYS" 

For a split second a smile spread across my face but then I realised, I have exams, my mum knows this, my holidays aren't in two weeks. I look at Cole who also doesn't seem bothered at the news. Which means...

"Faith, John, dad and I" She said as her and Faith shared a look of pure joy. Oh great. So that excludes me.

"I know its sudden, but all that catching up yesterday reminded us of our first trip to France together and we couldn't resist" 

What a joke! My parents get to shoot off to France and have the time of their life, and I'm stuck here, in highschool, doing exams. Why am I being punished, what have I done? 

Then it dawned on me, if they were away, I'd have to stay with my grandma. Please no.

"Thats um-great mum, does that mean I'll be staying at grandmas?" I asked my brows furrowing with stress.