She said you'd walk in my shadow,
She said you'd be my doom,
But the only shadow was yours,
And in it was my tomb.
I am not darkness, not hatred.
Are you always love and light?
Where was the love you once had for me,
When you poisoned me that terrible night?
She said they call you Emrys,
But you were always Merlin to me.
She said you were my destiny,
But doom is all I could see.
I know you tried to help me,
I know your reasons to hide,
But Merlin, why didn't you trust me?
More silence, and I would have died.
All my life I've been taught to hate it,
They said it brought naught but pain.
My father made that claim true,
The memories crowd up my brain.
You knew how I felt about magic!
You saw how I cared for the boy!
Merlin, why didn't you tell me?
We could have had such joy.
You cried because you wanted to help me,
You cried because you were the same.
I cried because I didn't know that,
And all my hopes went up in flame.
I didn't take the right path,
My beliefs were drowned by my hate,
But you weren't correct either,
You could have told me, it wasn't too late!
Those choices define us forever,
Nothing we can do to change,
I understand why you killed me,
My death or Camelot's, an exchange.
Merlin, understand that I'm sorry,
For Arthur you still wait.
I was a weapon of darkness,
We were both puppets of fate.
