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Who? #7

Dans P.O.V

¨i just wanted to say i-¨ Then phil was cut off by the door opening to the face i wished to never see again. My ex girlfriend, Tabitha. Straight away she runs up to me and lifts me off the couch. 

¨Dan its been sooooo long since we last fucked! Lets go!¨ I could see phils face fade from a smile to a sad face, i need to fix this tell her to leave and talk to phil. ¨Uh, No, we are not doing that. ive moved on since we last talked and guess what? Im gay! so bye now!¨ Phil and Tabitha both look at me, phil looks kinda happy that im gay but Tabitha, oh she doesn't not like it. ¨Who could like a gay like you?! Maybe your little friend? Oh no one likes him either!!!¨ Now shes just trying to make us both mad. Phil runs out of the room and the apartment. I just watch him unable to move. ¨Now hes gone? wan-¨ ¨No, just leave and never come back!¨ 

its been 5 hours since phil left, i have a feeling hes not coming back. But i cant live without him. I wish i told him everything while i had the chance to. Phil cant be mad. I know ill go to the shops and buy him a plushie lion and when he comes back ill give it to him and tell him. 

Its been 10 hours, i cant sleep, its midnight. I miss being with him. Oh god what if something happens while hes gone? What if he gets hit again? With all these thoughts rushing through my mind and run to the bathroom and to my trusty friend, razor. I pull it across my skin. 1,2,3,4,5,6. Only 6 today. Tomorrow i will do more. Maybe or just get drunk.. Theres a bar down the road, ill go there tomorrow night and get so drunk i feek numb and feel no pain. maybe i can meet people and have drunk sex with a stranger, i mean thats how me and phil meet.

15 hours since he left. I have not slept at all. Im still planing on going to the bar tonight so i should get ready for that and get semi drunk before i leave.