stronger

part 7

hey:) I really wanted to thank you all for 200 reads and 66 votes!  and I'm really glad that you gave me feedback because you are all right!  my story looks to much like the original hunger games. I never ment it to look so much like it, truly! sorry for that. I'm trying to make it. different. I am writing at this moment and I'm really trying hard. please say it when it is not good...

the first seconds I don't realize what happened. but when I hear a canon go of, I fall back in reality. why did he do this? he was able to win this! did he do it for me? so that I don't have to worry about him and win? that all would make no sense.. it shouldn't make sense . we've met each other less then a week ago. did he sacrifice himself because of me?  

it all happened too fast.. first he saves me, then he loves me and now he probably sacrifices himself.   "it doesn't make sense."  I think. 

I'm feeling empty inside and I don't even care about the careers who are standing above me. the girl looks at me and points her weapon at my head. "what a pity of your boyfriend. I wanted to kill him so bad,"  she says.   "but at least I can kill you." 

I do nothing and say nothing. there are happening too much thinks to handle at this moment.   

the girl is concentrating on me and almost kills me when the boy says:  "wait! don't kill her.  finally she is going to loose it and then she will die the same way as that stupid boy. I would love to see her die like that!"

  "..10..,9..,8..,7.,6..,5...4..,3....,2..1.."

I count in my head, because I have to calm down. 

I am getting tired of balancing on the stick. so I try to climb down. I don't know why but my feet are not working well. slowly I take a step to my right. that was stupid... the rock which I tried to climb on is crumbling unter my feet.

"stupid arena"  I think. I don't say it out loud because I don't want the other tributes to hear me.

my hands are getting slippery and I can't hold it anymore.  I slip away and fall.

I refuse it to scream because I know my father is watching me now.  I don't want him to see me die while I beg for my life. 

I'm 30 metres away from the ground .... 10 metres... .. bam.  I reach the ground with a loud bang.

my sight slowly stops and my ears screech.  I can feel the energy is walking out of my body.

just when I think I die, I see my mother standing in front of me with a girl who looks like me a lot. its my sister Caccia, who was in the hunger games too. she looks really young. younger then I remember her.

my mother wraps her arm arround Caccia and smiles up to me.

I try to stand up and against my thought it works. It almost feels like I'm flying,  that's how light I weigh.  I walk forward and plump down in their arms. memories fill my head and I smile. all the pain is gone for a minute. if I only could live in that situation all my life it would be so much easier to smile and have fun.

dying isn't as bad as I thought......well I think I'm dying...  because when I turn around I look at my own messed up body lying on the ground.  the arms are strangled, the head is full of blood and it's whiter then ice.  I can almost feel the cold air tingle around me.  my mother gives me a kiss on my head and then walks away slowly with my sister next to her.

I want to follow them, I want to be death and live with them forever. 

I call my mother.   she turns around and smiles.  "it's not your time yet." sounds over the place where I want to be.  and then they walk away into the light.

I'm alone.

I run after them but something is holding me back.  I turn around and see a hovercraft grabbing my damaged  'real' body.   they lift it up and I am flying up with them. I fly really high when everything starts to turn and goes black..