CLOSED EYES (ONE SHOT)

CLOSED EYES ( SHORT STORY)

 BY: HEYMSCASSANOVA

He kneeled in front of her. I took a deep breath as I continue to watch the ongoing scenario..

Moon is shining , stars are sparkling and the snow continues to fall.It's the first day of winter today.  I am walking down the street when I heard a familiar voice . I tried to figure out where did it came from till I found myself entering a small path with no lights on leading to a park. I'm guessing that I'm the only person who entered this way to the park , for it is not really a way and people kept using the real entrance of the park opposing this side I'm going through. It was really scary , I don't really know why I'm so curious about these voices.

I finally reached the park , I suppose that this is the end part of the park since I can see the people nearby the entrance at the other end.People usually don't go to ends like this.

Atlast!there is a light. Though it's  a bit dim , it's better than having no lights on. It was really silent and it scared me a lot. The voices I heard was gone. I decided to go back. And just when I'm about to turn .. I heard another voice talk.

"Do you love me?"  The voice was so soft. It was almost a whisper yet I can feel the sadness and sincerity in his voice. And it broke my heart..

"Do you love me?" The boy repeated. I don't know why his voice seems so  familiar.

I heard a sniff. Then it turned into a muffle sobs.

I can't help but to take a peek at my side where the voices are coming from. I saw a silhouette. I'm guessing that it's a boy and a girl , based on their figures. 

The girl was about to leave but the boy stopped him by grabbing her hand. Finally they stopped in front of the porch light . I can now see their fac----- I suddenly frozed.I don't know why my heart suddenly beated fast. It felt like a hand is squeezing it. My breathing became slower and deeper as the scenario kept on sinking into my mind.Suddenly , a name appeared on my mind. My heart sank down , my world shattered..

"Baekhyun.."

 2 years ago when a news started to spread.

2 years ago when my first heartbreak happened.

'Singer ,Byun baekhyun courting a non-showbiz girl'

I can still remember how hard I cried in front of my monitor when that news was announced. I was on school that day when one of my classmates said that my bias confirmed that he was courting a non-showbiz girl.At first I didn't believed her. I chose not to believe. Indeed , I was indenial though I already know the rumor about it days even before it was confirmed. It was the talk of the town ,of the country , of the world .. of the whole fandom. I can still remember how fast did I ran just to go home  and look for updates about that rumor. The said "confirmation" and links of the video interview of him were all over my news feed. I didn't dare to watch it. I just cried for 5 minutes before I decided to remove all the posters of him on the wall of my room. I didn't tore nor broke it , instead I just kept them into a box including the CDs , albums and magazines of him as the cover.Even the personalized shirts and shoes that I made for him. I hid it inside my cabinet and didn't open it for years even til now.I cried and didn't went to school for weeks after that..

2 years ago when I stopped fangirling.

It's not that I don't support him. I support him ofcourse. We all made a vow before we entered this fandom. To support and to love them no matter what.

It's just that .. I also need to support myself. I need to save my self from drowning. I need to save my heart from breaking. I know it'll hurt more soon if I'll continue.

That's why I stopped.

I tried to turn my attention on other things , I became hardworking person. I drowned myself into school. Since then , I didn't opened even atleast one of my accounts on social networking sites.

I thought I have already moved on , I thought I already forgot. I thought I finally let go of them. I thought pain already left me..

But why all the hurt came back? It felt like a stab in my heart.

He kneeled in front of her. I took a deep breath as I continue to watch the ongoing scenario..

I'm not sure what exactly he is saying for I'm already deaf with the sound of my heart crashing. But one thing is for sure , I'm not blind to not to realize what's happening.

Closed eyes he is begging her to stay , with tears he is waiting for her answer. I know , iknow ... my bias has been rejected.

She grabbed her own hands and ran away. There , in front of me .. I saw my bias still kneeling. I can still hear him crying. He suddenly screamed. I don't know why .. maybe because of too much pain. 

Though it was dark , I can still see the pain in his eyes. Though we're far away , I can still feel the hurt he's having..

"I thought I have already moved on , I thought I already forgot. I thought I finally let go of you. I thought pain already left me.."  Baek suddenly looked at me. Shock was written all over his face. He immediately wiped his tears but he didn't stand.

"Who are you?" He asked. I don't know if he's angry or what but his voice .. it feels like he's asking me to go away and never tell anyone what I saw.

I sighed before I went near him. 

One step forward , I gulped.He was looking directly into my eyes

Another step forward and then I smiled.

Last step forward , a tear escaped my eyes.

I handed him my handkerchief first before I spoke. He seems so hesistant at first but he then took it.

"I waited so long for this moment. You and I.." I wiped my tears . " ...Alone and facing each other"   I continued as tears also continued to flow "But why does it seems so wrong? Why does it feels so wrong? Are we in the right place .. but in wrong time?" I chuckled.By the looks of his face..He seems so creeped out when I laughed softly. Maybe he thinks Im a weirdo because I'm crying and at the same time , laughing

"I thought I 've already moved on , I thought I already forgot. I thought I finally let go of you. I thought pain already left me..But why all the hurt came back? Why did it came back?"  

My sight became blurry , his face were already not clear to me but I still managed to smile..

"Byun baekhyun .. you're not alone."  I turned my back on him and started walking away.

But before I could even leave.. I whispered. It's a whisper yet I made sure that he would be able to hear it..

Closed eyes I said , "I felt and I'm feeling what you're feeling..and I know I'll continue to feel it..."

"..A-and won't be able to stop it."My voice broke.I couldn't hold it anymore. 

Closed eyes , I left him.

PUBLISHED: 5:20 A.M PST

2/8/14

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