Rose's life was a utter miserable one. Alone and detached from the world, it forced her to become 'mute'. However someone came along.... How does it affect and change her life?
Sorry for such a bad intro but please do give this book a chance
Waking up can be really harsh, especially if your dreams are better than reality. The saddest part of it is, though, that eventually even the memory of your dream will fade - if you are even lucky enough to remember it that is. Then you're left with this lonely feeling of detachment, left to explore in the empty void of emotions, the only proof that you ever had the dream to begin with.
Slowly blinking my eyes open, i felt disorientated. Where am i? Why am i here? Why can't i move? Looking at myself, i saw an arm around my waist.... What happened?!?! Why is there someone next to me? Not wanting to wake the person beside me, i slowly removed his arm and get off the silky soft covers.
As i got off the bed, i soon realised that the person was Dimitri!! Then the memories from yesterday come gushing into my mind - his warmth, his aftershave, the feeling of safety..... Realising what i had done, i was sure im gonna get a beating if my father know about this.... No! He won't know, i just have to get out of here and make sure that this does not repeat again.
Seeing a stack of memo and pens at the bedside table, i quickly wrote a note to Dimitri:
Hey Comrade,
I guess its been long since we had ever talk or even embraced each other. However as much as i like to be with you again, i can't. There is a lot going go in my life that you should not be part of. You should forget everything that happened yesterday, its for the best.
- Rose
Leaving the note on the table, i quickly walked towards the balcony and opened the doors. Looking back at Dimitri's sleeping form.... He's so handsome..... his 6'7" height, lean, well-built, muscular physique. Beautiful chocolate brown eyes that i can get lost in. His brown chin length hair that's sometimes in his little ponytail and his angular, masculine features.
Turning back, i left the balcony and jumped down the 3-storey pack house. Luckily for me, no one was awake as it was just the break of dawn. Seeing that the forest looks similar to the one near my get away studio, i quickly navigated towards my studio to get my bag before i went home.
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(A/N: imagine this in the forest)
Skip to reaching Rose's house
As i reach home, i went to bathe. Removing my shirt, i saw that my injures was attended to and i had bandages around my ribs. Who did it? Please don't tell me its Dimitri!! No it can't be it must be his pack doctor, Dr Olendzki. Rose, you're thinking too much over this. Just get ready to go to school before you're late.
Skip to school
Seeing Lissa and the group at the benches, i waved and walked over. However, just as i was about to sit down with them, a hand grabbed my wrist and pulled me towards them. Looking up, it was Dimitri." We have to talk" Knowing him, he will most probably want to talk about what happened yesterday and this morning.
Faking confusion, i stared at him. Dimitri then pulled me away from the group. "Don't disturb us" he ordered the group. Not wanting to go with him, i struggled against his hold which led to him just picking me up and fast paced towards an empty classroom.
After entering the room, he placed me down and locked the door. "Why did you leave this morning? Why did you write that note?" He questioned. Not wanting to answer his questions, i just turn my back on him and sat at one of the desk.
Suddenly, his hands wrapped tightly around my torso. Jumping slightly, i sighed as he turn me to face him, not allowing me to go or look anywhere but him. He asked the same questions again and look at me in the eye as he waited for my answer.
Staring at his brown eyes, my resolved soon weakened and i answered him," it isn't safe for both of us." Confusion filled his eyes as he comprehended what i just said. Being so near him again was really nerve-wracking. My heart wants to be with him, to feel the warmth of his hugs and the feeling of safety. However my mind tells me that to keep him safe, i cannot be with him, i have to leave.
What should i choose? My heart or my mind?
However, i soon knew what i had to choose. Placing a hand on Dimitri's cheek, i whispered," i really want to mend our bond and be together again. But, you don't know what is happening in my life and it will hurt me, should you be involved in this. So, i beg you, forget us." As i said all this, Dimitri's eyes softened and emotions filled his eyes. As for me, tears filled my eyes as i tried to prevent them from falling. However, what hurts the most was my breaking heart that had to bear the consequences of my decision.
I placed a kiss over Dimitri's forehead as a farewell gift. "Take care comrade. We may see each other in school, be in the same group, in the same class but please treat me like as if i am invisible or a stranger."
With that, i stood to leave but Dimitri prevented me from doing so. "Don't. Don't leave me again, stay, i need you. I'm here for you. Just let me in. Allow me to take care for you. To fight for you." he pleaded.
Hearing his words, wavered my heart .His words made me want to rethink my decision, to go into his arms and accept his promise.
However, the very thought of my father prevented me from doing so. I know my love for him will be his downfall. So i know i had to sacrifice myself to protect him.
Shaking my head, i whispered," I'm sorry. This is to protect you." With shaky hands, i gently pushed him away and ran off.
