My life so far

Authors note

Yea another authors note, um well I guess she took it well. I feel bad but I had too. I told her in person and uh she understood. This is why I don't like being in realationship. I do like this guys an as I said we are just friends and I think he dosen't like me back. My wi-fi is coming back on Wednesday thank The Lord Jesus. I can't wait for a upgrade on my phone it's been like 5 years since I have got one so I'm happy.  Okay so I'm gonna ask the guy that I like some questions and if he asks who I like I might just be a chicken or just say it under my breath. If he doesn't like me that's okay. I just don't want it to become akward. I found out my friend is dating someone that's nice. Heh how come everyone's single when I'm in a relationship, then when I'm single everyone's in a relationship. Huh well I guess that's life. Um well here is probably is what I will say to him:   jaxon, hey I know this is probably gonna be really weird if you see this but by the time if you read this I wanted to say something to you but I was um scared to tell you. I like you, yes I know you probably don't like me. Which is fine but I guess it's worth telling you. I mean your my friend you have the right to know. I don't know by the time you read this I still like you but you should probably  ask after this. I'm typing in my notes  contemplating if I will regret this or feel relived. So if you never see this well this was a waste of time and if you do, that means I'm very brave well no that just means I sent it and hid in my room all day waiting for you to reply. Yea I already know you don't like me it's okay. I have been rejected before. I just hope it won't make it awkward. Now that I have typed this in my notes I have just realized I'm a big idiot, cause why would a guy like you like me I mean I'm basically a potato. People have asked if we are dating and you said no I don't like her no offense. Which probably answered my question even more. God why I'm a such an idiot. Well if you see this, I'm sorry for letting it all out in one paragraph. Even though I could have just summarized it into three words easily. I guess that's
just what I am a whole paragraph of mess.