Trapped

Chapter 2

Chapter 2

As I get dressed for today’s date with Alexander, I find myself wishing I was meeting with Elias again. When he held me in his arms while hugging me goodbye, every doubt I had about him quickly slipped away. I don’t think it’s possible to have that…connection with more than one person but I can’t be sure. I’m not aloud to act on any feeling but friendship until I receive my matches. This is all so new and overwhelming.

The rain has kept me from waiting outside. I stare out the window by our front door and try to make out any signs of a car coming towards my home. This is the first rain in 3 months and it is much needed for our plants.

Within the first 5 minutes of waiting, I see headlights and then there is a knock on my door. Hesitantly, I open my door, not wanting the wind to push the rain inside and not wanting this date to start. With an umbrella over my head and his hand resting on the small of my back, he leads me to his car. A few long moments pass before either of us say anything.

“You look cute.”

Cute? My mother says I look cute. “Thanks.”

In his facts, it says that he fought for men to have more power than women in our government. Knowing that, I already don’t like him. I can’t decide what I want more; to go back in time and experience yesterday all over again, or, to go to tomorrow and experience Frey. I’ve been thrilled to be able to look at his file ever since I woke up this morning. Unfortunately, I have to wait until my date with Alexander is over.

It’s awkward and quiet. It was clear the second I started reading his facts that we weren’t going to work out. But, I can’t help but wonder what he thinks of me. I’m absolutely sure that my political views were the exact opposite from his. Political views are a very big factor in choosing the people that are in my life. Dad was a lawyer so I was raised to pick and choose based on other people’s opinions.

All was silent again until we got to our first destination. GrandPark. It’s the only park in my state so it’s always crowded with people trying to have a “Peaceful” day. They should know…

“You wish you were with someone right now.” He started, making me turn my head to face him. “Someone that isn’t me.”

I don’t know what to say. I don’t want to be rude and confess but…he already knows. All I can think to do is sit there with a look of helplessness strung across my face.

He laughed so quietly I’m surprised I hear it. “It’s okay. Me too.”

A slight smile runs across my lips and I nod.

“I’m kind of glad you’re not interested. This way, maybe when she turns 16, I’ll be one of her choices.”

“Can’t you just request your choices?”

After I make my choice, the other boys can chose to get 3 files for themselves or try to get chosen again.

“I don’t want to take that chance.” He started. I can tell he is lost deep in his thoughts. “I would rather wait to see if I’m one of her choices than get my own and not know what could have been.”

There was a silence that filled the air. I wonder what it would be like to love someone and not get a choice to be with that person.

“Does she love you?”

He smiles and runs his fingers through his light brown hair. “She tries not to, so she won’t get hurt, but I think she does.”

Well, today is going to be awkward. Here we are, supposed to be seeing if we are meant be together forever, a process that should take all day, and we already know we aren’t.