Scarlets Diary

An Effort.

         Hello, my name is Scarlet and blah blah blah. I don't care about introductions. This is my journal or diary or whatever you want to call it.

       Though I used most of my journal diary pages for drawing. I would like to use this for drawing and writing to fight my demons.

       Sometimes I feel depression creeping up on me and try to drag me under, but I fight it, because I almost fell down that hole before.

      Sometimes I will feel lonely even if I'm surrounded by people. Sometimes I feel like I just don't belong but it's my demons.

        What am I suppose to do? Keep them at bay or let them out? I don't want to ruin my life. I'm different I get that. I have scars on my arms and I tend to ignore people when they talk to me. Why? You may ask. Well because I know it's just to tease me. I also dress differently but that don't mean nothing.

      I feel the only thing that is keeping me stable are my scars. I like to call them my battle scars. Each scar for a battle won and each scar for a battle lost.

No one can understand, or better yet. See the pain I feel inside.

    Do you even know how hard it is to fake a smile then pretend that I'm okay even though I'm not?

  Of course I am slowly slipping under. But I'm just gonna let it happen this time. I'm so tired of fighting my demons. I'm just gonna give up and let them take over.

  I need to just let myself slip under. It would just be so much easier if I disappeared. If I just faded away.

    Would anyone even care if I was hurt? In pain? Lost? Alone? Worthless? Cut? Dissapeared? Faded away?

     Who knows. Anyway I'm going to go play on my phone.

     Bye. 

      **** I hope you guys enjoyed this first chapter. Comment if you want more of Scarlets Diary. I promise it will get better I just need to work up to it. Don't forget to check out my other stuff. Let me know what you thought of the first chapter anyway. And follow me on Quotev at KiaraMartinaJeanSamson.